My answer: I was raised in a home without religion, and was a blank slate. I'm not going to discuss merits of one religion over another.
Let me preface my answer by saying, we all grope for answers, and life is one long quest (if we choose it) seeking to get closer to understanding truth, and God, and the mysteries of life. Our knowledge is imperfect. Our wisdom is imperfect. Even if God comes down and whispers the secrets of the Universe into our ears, we do not have the capacity to fully understand more than a thimble full of what he would say. That's very humbling, but true.
The most profound religious writing for me, comes from the Bible, in Luke chapter 15. I'm not going to quote it, but will give the gist of it. It is the story of the prodigal son. In the story, it compares God to an earthly father with two children.
In the story, one demands his inheritance, and goes out and squanders it on what they called riotous living, and that includes spending it on harlots and whatever pleasures were available at the time. The other kid stayed at home, and was dutiful.
So, a famine comes upon the land, and this lost son is sleeping in pig slop, and comes to his senses and decides to come home. But he doesn't ever imagine he can come home as a son, because of the life he led. Essentially he was a Jewish kid, who violated their laws to the nth degree. They weren't even allowed to touch pig flesh, and he wound up living in a pig pen.
So, he plans to become a servant, and not a "son", and will plead that his father hires him, and lets him sleep in the barn.
In the story, the father, who represents God, sees him afar off, and says, "Get him a ring and a robe, and prepare a feast...."
Well, the older brother gets ticked off. He says, "How long have I been serving you, and you never gave me food to have a party with my friends" (Paraphrased)
And THIS SON OF YOURS, has wasted his inheritance on harlots and riotous living, and now he comes home,and you throw him this big party.
Now, I'm going to explain why this story has meant so much to me. First, it tells me that God has two children. And I think this is a very profound thing, in that we all fit in one category or the other, to one degree or the other.
The strange thing about this story, was that it didn't matter where either child lived, because they were both lost. One was lost far away. The younger son came home and couldn't imagine being a son, only a servant. But the one who was living at home, never realized he was a son either, and was continually striving, because he identified himself as a servant.
He said, "I have served you all these years, but you never gave me..." In other words, in his mind, he was "EARNING" love acceptance, an inheritance. He felt he "earned it", meaning, he never felt his father gave it to him.
His father's answer was profound, "You were with me this many years...ALL THAT I HAVE IS YOURS" In other words, he was slaving for what he already owned. It's like your parent giving you a car as a gift, and you go out and get a job, and pay it back. Then it isn't a gift is it? He could have had a party with his friends at anytime, but he was so "Dutiful", he couldn't imagine his father would let him.
Another lesson. To a father, a lost son, and a found son are of equal value. If they are lost, the father doesn't despise them, they grieve for them. (Normal parents)
The story of the prodigal son, was the third parable in this chapter. But each one is about the same thing. All of us, mankind (male and female) have intrinsic value in the eyes of God. Everything he used as an illustration, would have made sense to that audience. In each case, it refers to something of value to someone. "Lost sheep", "Lost coin", "Lost son".
A lost gold piece is of no less value if it is lost, or dirty. It retains the same intrinsic value. This is something he older brother didn't get. The older brother disowned the younger, "This SON OF YOURS..." He is basically saying, "You are a fool for taking him back. He has let you down, and done stupid things. You should make him pay, and reject him forever for being so worthless." But that isn't the father's perspective.
Another lesson in this story is profound to me. It is saying that all of us are lost to some degree or another (through our perspectives).
It didn't matter whether we felt close to God or far from God, whether we were going to Temple, Mosque, Church, or Synogogue. And our foundness is not really a matter of our place in the world, but our view of God. In this case the story is saying that God thinks like a Father, not an angry drill sergeant.
The story isn't told from the son's perspective, but the fathers perspective. It was addressed to religious people, who made classes in their minds. "Righteous and Sinners".
The two sons: I will call Son number one, who is the oldest, "Religious Striving". I will call the second son, "Numbing" the pain of life by jumping into pleasure".
I think we all know what "Numbing" looks like. It's doing what you feel you got to do to make life seem bearable. And that can be a slippery slope that leads to pig slop.
Religious Striving is a little harder to define. It's not about "love of God". That's a misnomer. It's about "my view of me".
No matter what religion you look at, including my own, you will find that "religious striving" has always caused people to miss the mark. Religious Striving has caused people to do evil in the name of God, and demean, and despise. In a sense, religious striving is a mind focused on "Me", and not "God",
The Prodigal Son story shows a father who loves all of his children, whether they are home or out living in pig slop. Their value isn't less. They are either lost or found, but their value is such that the father longs for them wherever they are.
Religious Striving is "ME" trying to prove something to othes, and it always leads to strife. It is my building a tower of Babel to "make a name for myself"- which according to that story, was their "Cheif" motivations. Anything I do whose cheif motivation is to make a name for "Myself", may sound spiritual, but it is really "SELF" centered. If my motive is "God's name", that is different. But there is really a fine line between the two. The motive of the Babel tower, was not, "to bless God, or honor God", but to honor and bless "the builder"-me.
So, as I see this whole scripture. My idea of God, is different than what it was before. I can't see anyone as less than me. They have the same intrinsic value that I have. If not then I am a hypocrite, and where can I base my own hope?
My life's goal is balance. Not to "strive" to prove that I have value, when my value is imputed (given to me from God), and is not from my striving. And my other goal is to not be so foolish as to spend my life in pig slop.
A robe and a ring, were symbolic of "authority". In other words, the lost son came home to be a servant, but his father restored him to his full authority as a son, and celebrated his coming home. That was a far cry from the idea of God I had. Even after being an atheist, I imagined someone who would never accept me. I'm kind of glad he had a kid who already proved that God will accept kids who spent their lives in pig slop, because that's how I felt at that time.
Feel free to share your own inspirational story, of what impacted your own view of God. I for one promise I won't throw any stones if it is completely different than my own, and I hope noone else here will. Thanks for listening.