I'm rather old-fashioned and I think filmmaking is my destiny. I doubt it's my only one, but someone's definitely done their homework to make sure this is the ride I take. It's as if my interests led me on some kind of invisible bread crumb trail to reach what I'm supposed to do in life.
Case in point. I used to play a Star Trek chat room game on AOL. One night a week, we'd have a live session where we'd sort of act out an episode of our own group's adventure/mission. Aside from that, in order to get promoted, you had to write logs, which were usually prose emails that developed your character more or developed the plot more. One of the leaders on my ships would sometimes write these "logs" in the Courier-12 format. Something about that just ignited an interest in me, so I got the guy to teach it to me. I was like...14 or 15. I played around with it on a few projects in a high school creative writing class. But it wasn't until my freshman year of college that I started writing for real with the format. Of course everybody else in the class was learning it for the first time. It looked like Greek to them, initially. To me, it was a ride around the block.
Now...add that to how I've listened to film scores since birth and always gone through life feeling almost like Truman in The Truman Show...it definitely feels like I belong in film. To me, life is like an on-going movie with no cuts or edits. Whether it'll be distributed and shown someday for entertainment...I'm not sure. I think it will be in the next life. Then again, I'm one of those chrazy Christians who believes in Heaven and Hell and all that jazz. But since life is like a movie and I listen to film music a lot...I often try to score moments with film music. For instance, when we were at Mt. St. Helens a couple weeks ago, I listened to Star Trek The Motion Picture while we drove through there. The V'Ger cues totally evoked the mystery and the destructive potential of the mountain. And it just gave the whole experience this neat dramatic flair. Of course, I get whimsical with it and listen to James Bond while I'm driving around in my car. You don't know fun until you've done that, believe me!
In addition to that, even when I try to go off and do something else as a career, the circumstances just work themselves out to bring me back to filmmaking. Since I've been in college, I've strongly considered two different majors from film: Bible and History. Both times I wound up back in film. And it's not for a lack of trying, either. I was all gung-ho to be a Bible major, gearing up to be a preacher. I was willing to read all those neat, fascinating history books. But the cameras and the creativity's beckoning was too strong to ignore. (Especially, too, when the state threatened to take back a few hundred dollars of scholarship money if you didn't change out of a religious major, too.)
In any case, I'm happy. Well, almost happy. Having my own family might be pretty good too someday.