I guess maybe we all have that top story in our heads - that story we know will be the best seller. I have one, I'm thinking about it right now. I know it will be awsome and I am DESPERATE to have it done.
Note, I said have it done, not writing.
So whats stopping me from writing this top story thats been in my head forever?
Fear.
Fear of what? Fear that it will suck. Fear that I won't ever be able to make as good as it can be. Every time I read another book thats supposed to be good, I get jealous and feel unworthy of writing it. Like, if its not tip-top, it shouldn't be written until I am tip-top!
Want the truth? I'm only 18. I've only finished a short story and writeen 200K words of a novel that despertly needs to be revised. I've written reports, won a writing contest, finished short stories for schools. But thats all. I'm still awaiting feedback for my short story - and that will take until the end of the month. I have another novel to write - and I wouldn't mind sitting down now and writing it. But truth be known I'd much rather be working on my top idea.
But besides it not being good enough? Heres my other fear.
Becoming a recluse. I know when you become a writer you almost become a recluse, and I dont want that. I don't have carry around lap-top access, which means I couldn't write while out of home. The number one thing I can't stand is wasting my time. And for some reason I feel like Im wasting my time when I write. So what am I supposed to do?
I feel a desperate need to write this novel- real desperate. I don't know why, but I JUST DO.
Whith my short story, I sat down and wrote it in one sitting. I loved it. I also hated it. It wasn't perfect, BUT I FINISHED IT! So, now I'm on the major revising stage and hoping to send it to editors when done.
I'm terrified to write this novel, like I'm so stuck in writing it I'm at the computer for seven hours a day, not getting my exercise, becoming a recluse, it just scares me! Though, I'm desperate to just get it done.
One short story to finish, one half-written novel, and the one that I feel the urge to finish but am not in the mood to write. What should I do?
Note, I said have it done, not writing.
So whats stopping me from writing this top story thats been in my head forever?
Fear.
Fear of what? Fear that it will suck. Fear that I won't ever be able to make as good as it can be. Every time I read another book thats supposed to be good, I get jealous and feel unworthy of writing it. Like, if its not tip-top, it shouldn't be written until I am tip-top!
Want the truth? I'm only 18. I've only finished a short story and writeen 200K words of a novel that despertly needs to be revised. I've written reports, won a writing contest, finished short stories for schools. But thats all. I'm still awaiting feedback for my short story - and that will take until the end of the month. I have another novel to write - and I wouldn't mind sitting down now and writing it. But truth be known I'd much rather be working on my top idea.
But besides it not being good enough? Heres my other fear.
Becoming a recluse. I know when you become a writer you almost become a recluse, and I dont want that. I don't have carry around lap-top access, which means I couldn't write while out of home. The number one thing I can't stand is wasting my time. And for some reason I feel like Im wasting my time when I write. So what am I supposed to do?
I feel a desperate need to write this novel- real desperate. I don't know why, but I JUST DO.
Whith my short story, I sat down and wrote it in one sitting. I loved it. I also hated it. It wasn't perfect, BUT I FINISHED IT! So, now I'm on the major revising stage and hoping to send it to editors when done.
I'm terrified to write this novel, like I'm so stuck in writing it I'm at the computer for seven hours a day, not getting my exercise, becoming a recluse, it just scares me! Though, I'm desperate to just get it done.
One short story to finish, one half-written novel, and the one that I feel the urge to finish but am not in the mood to write. What should I do?
