Thank you all for your help. Right now I'm at a standstill with the book since my beta is in the hospital for internal bleeding. She was hospitalized last month for a different reason. I worry and pray for her.

I still feel ashamed about my book, but I realize, someone has to like it. With this, I'll go forth with editing when I can and then see if I still want to publish it. Maybe working with a beta who liked my story will be a confidence boost.