Anyone around here going to AWP in Portland next month? I made a goal last year to apply for a Regional Artist Project grant to go to some sort of conference, and picked, at random, what seemed like the biggest thing I could find in the U.S. It also helped that I noticed other RAP grants had been awarded to attend this conference in the past, so that seemed like a good sign.
Anyhow, to my great surprise, I was given the grant, and now that it's a month out and everything is arranged, the reality is creeping in that I have no clue what I'm doing and have made Poor Life Choices. It seems like the AWP is mostly for MFA types (not me), poetry types (definitely not me), and literary types (please not me). I just want to go to try and meet some agents and maybe some publishers face-to-face in a semi-professional manner. I have a fantasy novel that's almost as done as I and my little small-town writer's group can make it. Meanwhile, there is almost no mention of genre stuff in the conference panels, etc.
I'm sure it'll be a good time. I love being alone in a crowd for a few days, so I'm looking forward to being somewhere new, etc. But the "goal" of this trip just seems SOOOO unlikely. I'm looking forward to a lot of neat panels, never turn down the chance for some edumacation, but, I don't see much of my personal goals in there anywhere if I'm not down for hobnobing at the after parties. I'm panicking and wishing I'd picked something else, but it's just too late now.
So, back to my original question. Any of you folks been to this circus? I've read all sorts of serious and cheeky writes ups about "what to do/not do" sort of thing, but they seem mostly geared to the young MFA people. ("Find a sexy poet and sleep with them!" "Drink with strangers!" "Make business cards in advance!") For several year I went to one of these sorts of massive conference things at the College Media Association's big spring shindig in NYC, but as an advisor. Lots of fun, great for the kiddos, and I picked up all sorts of knowledge on the sidelines. Never tried to "network" because I did.not.give.a.crap. and wasn't there for myself.
Meanwhile, now I'm happily in the frumpy middle aged part of my life, and as a woman, the idea of drinking with strangers in a strange city holds zero appeal. As does running around exploring after dark. (God, I AM old, aren't I? That didn't used to be the case, you know.)
Talk me down, anyone? Or back up, whatever seems better.
Anyhow, to my great surprise, I was given the grant, and now that it's a month out and everything is arranged, the reality is creeping in that I have no clue what I'm doing and have made Poor Life Choices. It seems like the AWP is mostly for MFA types (not me), poetry types (definitely not me), and literary types (please not me). I just want to go to try and meet some agents and maybe some publishers face-to-face in a semi-professional manner. I have a fantasy novel that's almost as done as I and my little small-town writer's group can make it. Meanwhile, there is almost no mention of genre stuff in the conference panels, etc.
I'm sure it'll be a good time. I love being alone in a crowd for a few days, so I'm looking forward to being somewhere new, etc. But the "goal" of this trip just seems SOOOO unlikely. I'm looking forward to a lot of neat panels, never turn down the chance for some edumacation, but, I don't see much of my personal goals in there anywhere if I'm not down for hobnobing at the after parties. I'm panicking and wishing I'd picked something else, but it's just too late now.
So, back to my original question. Any of you folks been to this circus? I've read all sorts of serious and cheeky writes ups about "what to do/not do" sort of thing, but they seem mostly geared to the young MFA people. ("Find a sexy poet and sleep with them!" "Drink with strangers!" "Make business cards in advance!") For several year I went to one of these sorts of massive conference things at the College Media Association's big spring shindig in NYC, but as an advisor. Lots of fun, great for the kiddos, and I picked up all sorts of knowledge on the sidelines. Never tried to "network" because I did.not.give.a.crap. and wasn't there for myself.
Meanwhile, now I'm happily in the frumpy middle aged part of my life, and as a woman, the idea of drinking with strangers in a strange city holds zero appeal. As does running around exploring after dark. (God, I AM old, aren't I? That didn't used to be the case, you know.)
Talk me down, anyone? Or back up, whatever seems better.