Hello and greetings for you all.
I know that you are smart people with lots of imaginative ideas. You always have a piece of advice for everybody. I hope you will be able to help me too, somehow.
My writer's block is a unique one but not in a good sense. To put it straight, somebody broke my heart very, very badly. You know, it was that kind of love that you feel only once in your life. That burning flame that eats you from inside, but at the same time makes you feel alive like never before.
So I met that guy and wrote to him about my writing, send him some fragments. He understood completely the process of writing. He encouraged me to write, sometimes critisiced, sometimes said very positive things. I felt like he was my soulmate in this matter. Never experienced something like this before. Feelings so strong that I wrote, wrote and wrote, almost unconsciously, like I was mad, words were dancing on the keyboard, characters, situations, settings and ideas came to me one after another effortlessly.
And then, it happened. He proved me wrong, dissapointed me, made very bad thing, and finally left deeply heartbroken. My life seemed to be empty suddenly. Even though I knew deeply inside that he was not right for me, it hurted very very much. I couldn't believe that he is gone. My source of inspiration and my biggest fan - gone and cause so much damage. That was a real catastrophy for me.
Since then, a long time has passed and I managed to heal my wounds a bit. Still...the passion for writing I felt, that feeling of writing with ease, even without much thinking... it is all gone. Each time I am trying to write, I feel soooo empty. Like I had nothing else to say, like everything that comes to my mind was worthless. Simply. And, my writing reminds me of that guy that I try to remove from my memory cause he saw my stuff.
I am seriously struggling.... I don't know what could I possibly do. Life without writing seems unbereable to me and simply...boring. But... I can't force myself to write again, I can't find that joy and spontaneity again. I am so unhappy.
What would you advise me? Is there something...anything, that can be possibly done? Should I just give up on it?
Best wishes for you all.
M.
I know that you are smart people with lots of imaginative ideas. You always have a piece of advice for everybody. I hope you will be able to help me too, somehow.
My writer's block is a unique one but not in a good sense. To put it straight, somebody broke my heart very, very badly. You know, it was that kind of love that you feel only once in your life. That burning flame that eats you from inside, but at the same time makes you feel alive like never before.
So I met that guy and wrote to him about my writing, send him some fragments. He understood completely the process of writing. He encouraged me to write, sometimes critisiced, sometimes said very positive things. I felt like he was my soulmate in this matter. Never experienced something like this before. Feelings so strong that I wrote, wrote and wrote, almost unconsciously, like I was mad, words were dancing on the keyboard, characters, situations, settings and ideas came to me one after another effortlessly.
And then, it happened. He proved me wrong, dissapointed me, made very bad thing, and finally left deeply heartbroken. My life seemed to be empty suddenly. Even though I knew deeply inside that he was not right for me, it hurted very very much. I couldn't believe that he is gone. My source of inspiration and my biggest fan - gone and cause so much damage. That was a real catastrophy for me.
Since then, a long time has passed and I managed to heal my wounds a bit. Still...the passion for writing I felt, that feeling of writing with ease, even without much thinking... it is all gone. Each time I am trying to write, I feel soooo empty. Like I had nothing else to say, like everything that comes to my mind was worthless. Simply. And, my writing reminds me of that guy that I try to remove from my memory cause he saw my stuff.
I am seriously struggling.... I don't know what could I possibly do. Life without writing seems unbereable to me and simply...boring. But... I can't force myself to write again, I can't find that joy and spontaneity again. I am so unhappy.
What would you advise me? Is there something...anything, that can be possibly done? Should I just give up on it?
Best wishes for you all.
M.