I'd really just love an ear.
I keep changing whole chunks of personalities of characters. I feel like I can't fall in love with the one female character. But she's critical to the story.
So I keep changing her background, the characters around her...and then I feel like I have to change the whole thing.
I do have a firm idea of where I want my story to end; what the actual point is. That much I do know, and that involves a male character. But the entire story can't be from his POV.
This isn't new, though. It's lather, rinse, repeat for me and it has been for decades. I get up to about 25,000 words and then I think, "It's all garbage. I should have started from a completely different direction."
WHAT is wrong with me? This blocks me. In the past, similar issues have made me throw thousands and thousands of words away. I have been "writing a book" for literally 40 years now. It changes...I throw it away.
Can anyone relate? Am I really just not WANTING to write this thing? Because although I write for a living (for other people), when it comes to me having full responsibility for the content, I fall apart.
I wonder if deep down, I really just don't want to write a book. I feel guilty because this is how I'm finally supposed to make "real money" and take weight off my husband's shoulders (freelancing doesn't bring in a huge amount) but I hate it, I keep avoiding it...even though I could write actual words (like these, for instance) all day long, day in and day out.
Help.
Am I just not meant to write a book?
Anyone ever feel the same? What conclusions did you draw?
I keep changing whole chunks of personalities of characters. I feel like I can't fall in love with the one female character. But she's critical to the story.
So I keep changing her background, the characters around her...and then I feel like I have to change the whole thing.
I do have a firm idea of where I want my story to end; what the actual point is. That much I do know, and that involves a male character. But the entire story can't be from his POV.
This isn't new, though. It's lather, rinse, repeat for me and it has been for decades. I get up to about 25,000 words and then I think, "It's all garbage. I should have started from a completely different direction."
WHAT is wrong with me? This blocks me. In the past, similar issues have made me throw thousands and thousands of words away. I have been "writing a book" for literally 40 years now. It changes...I throw it away.
Can anyone relate? Am I really just not WANTING to write this thing? Because although I write for a living (for other people), when it comes to me having full responsibility for the content, I fall apart.
I wonder if deep down, I really just don't want to write a book. I feel guilty because this is how I'm finally supposed to make "real money" and take weight off my husband's shoulders (freelancing doesn't bring in a huge amount) but I hate it, I keep avoiding it...even though I could write actual words (like these, for instance) all day long, day in and day out.
Help.
Am I just not meant to write a book?
Anyone ever feel the same? What conclusions did you draw?
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