I didn't know what "outlining" was until this month. I have several craft books I bought to teach me how to write fiction, and these books make you believe that if you want to write a good novel, and write it super fast, you have to plan and outline everything. I have this one book that took things to a ridiculous level, where the guy says that you need to know - before hand - how many pages your novel will be, then you divide those pages up into chapters, then each chapter gets an outline, then divide each chapter into scenes, then each scene gets an outline, then divide each scene into 2-3 bullet points... then you have to create your characters, write out their entire bibliography, backstory. And then you can commence writing.
I tried to outline. The thing the book says makes sense in a way. The books say that your creativity needs "context" to be creative inside of. So I tried outlining, and it didn't work for me. I thought there was something wrong with me. Like I'll never be able to write a book if I can't outline. This discouraged me, and I thought about quitting.
I'm used to just writing; "pantser" as they say. Well not just writing. I don't just sit in front of a computer and start typing. Over the years of write tons of long essays about philosophical stuff, I've developed my own "procedure" which works very well for me.
First I think about a "seed thought" which is the idea, ideation, concept, view, model, theme, moral, etc, that I want to convey to my target reader. I have one specific target reader in my mind. Then I spend a week "incubating" that seed thought, like an egg. I'll meditate on it, mull over it, pace around back and forth thinking about how to articulate that seed thought. Then something weird happens after a few days of this incubation where your psyche begins to murmur into your mind ideas, words, visions, pictures. It's like your talking to yourself: uttering words, terms, phrases, and whole sentences. Like something is dictating to you what to write. Some sort of a strong feeling builds up inside where it feels like you have to write it all down, to express it, manifest it. When that feeling gets very strong, and when I can see and feel the whole essay in my head, I sit down and type mindlessly. With this method, I've been able to write essay that were 50 pages long, nonstop, in one sitting.
When I had the desire to write fiction - just a couple months ago - at first I struggled to write a story even a page long. I got fed up over not being able to write stories. Then I had the idea of perhaps using that method/procedure I use with my essays to write fictional stories. So I developed a seed thought, created a main character. Then I spent a week incubating the seed thought, until I can see some kind of movie starring my main character in my head. Once I can see the whole movie in my head, that weird thing happens where your psyche begins to murmur and give you flashes of scenes, ideas, visions, and so on. So I sat down and wrote at the right moment, and I ended up writing a 10,000 worded erotica story [rough first draft] in one day. I tried it again the following week and I wrote another 10,000 word story in 8 hours. Those first drafts lack good descriptive stuff though; I'm working on this.
Right now I'm trying to mix outlining with the thing I do. I'm experimenting to see if it works. I write one chapter using my incubation method. Then once I have one chapter, I try to loosely outline the next chapter using that concept of Cause & Effect I learned from those craft books. So far, I'm having a hard time outlining even one chapter. I end up just sitting there.
I thought there was something wrong with me, like I'll never write a fiction novel because I can't outline and preplan everything. Seeing how outlining doesn't work for many of you guys here has actually helped me see things differently: you can write a book without outlining, you guys have done it already!