Hello! I sure hope I'm in the correct place. I've been brainstorming this madness, and I've come to realize I need fresh eyes and a different perspective. I'm what people would call cis or straight. I'm happily married with no children, so that's my very general sexual background for you. It only matters in regards to this pesky main character who deserves a strong voice. She's not exactly anything.
To begin, this character has never experienced any sort of romantic or sexual feelings for another person (except one - we'll get to that in a moment). She has quite a tragic family life, and that seems to be the heaviest explanation. So far, she's befriended a girl questioning her own sexuality. This girl has a very odd polyamorous (ish) relationship (arrangement?) with another main character who feels she may be more into women than she originally thought. In the scene, my female main protagonist abruptly kisses this girl. She does this mostly to see if she can feel anything. Their conversation piques her interest. She thinks maybe she could try to see if maybe she could feel anything for another girl.
This scene seems to be a big character moment for this protagonist because she doesn't feel anything. At least she helps the other girl discover that she is indeed not as straight as she thought in the first place. These two aren't terribly close before this, and they don't exactly try to make a relationship out of this moment. This moment is more about the fear within my protagonist that she is broken of sorts. This is a major fear she has. The only person she feels anything for is someone she doesn't think would ever feel the same way, and she uses this to prevent her from exploring her feelings for her best friend (a male).
What exactly is it when you're not exactly attracted to (as a female in this scenario) males and are not attracted to females? She's branched off into other possibilities like demisexual and even asexual. She doesn't exactly fit into any box.
My very longwinded question seems to come back to this. What exactly is this situation?
I'm asking genuinely stumped. This character is lost among a lot of things, but for some reason, her (lack) of a sexuality - and at the same time the ability to only be attracted to one specific person - seems to define her in a way I'm not familiar with. Help me please? Hopefully I've ran home with my point. I tend to babble both on and off the Internet. My apologies if something doesn't read right. I'm genuinely stumped and need thoughts!
To begin, this character has never experienced any sort of romantic or sexual feelings for another person (except one - we'll get to that in a moment). She has quite a tragic family life, and that seems to be the heaviest explanation. So far, she's befriended a girl questioning her own sexuality. This girl has a very odd polyamorous (ish) relationship (arrangement?) with another main character who feels she may be more into women than she originally thought. In the scene, my female main protagonist abruptly kisses this girl. She does this mostly to see if she can feel anything. Their conversation piques her interest. She thinks maybe she could try to see if maybe she could feel anything for another girl.
This scene seems to be a big character moment for this protagonist because she doesn't feel anything. At least she helps the other girl discover that she is indeed not as straight as she thought in the first place. These two aren't terribly close before this, and they don't exactly try to make a relationship out of this moment. This moment is more about the fear within my protagonist that she is broken of sorts. This is a major fear she has. The only person she feels anything for is someone she doesn't think would ever feel the same way, and she uses this to prevent her from exploring her feelings for her best friend (a male).
What exactly is it when you're not exactly attracted to (as a female in this scenario) males and are not attracted to females? She's branched off into other possibilities like demisexual and even asexual. She doesn't exactly fit into any box.
My very longwinded question seems to come back to this. What exactly is this situation?
I'm asking genuinely stumped. This character is lost among a lot of things, but for some reason, her (lack) of a sexuality - and at the same time the ability to only be attracted to one specific person - seems to define her in a way I'm not familiar with. Help me please? Hopefully I've ran home with my point. I tend to babble both on and off the Internet. My apologies if something doesn't read right. I'm genuinely stumped and need thoughts!
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