Just doing some stuff around the apartment, nothing too exciting. Honestly I've been kind of lazing around all day and spending too much time in my own head. Starting to have doubts about my moment of bravery earlier this week, and it's really bothering me that I haven't seen R since then. It's silly to think he would be actively avoiding me over it of course, but then I wonder if I really made such a huge mistake that he just doesn't even want to talk to me anymore. Sigh.
If he really is avoiding you for a simple inquiry about a cup of coffee, he's the one with Issues, not you. (Not that I've mentally obsessed over social awkwardness myself... I, um, saw it in a newspaper somewhere...)
Trying to think about tomorrow instead, I'm heading to the beach for the day. My best friend rented a beach house for the whole week. Yay free parking and good company. I'm gonna be a lobster probably. I do need to buy a new bathing suit though, the old one didn't fit anymore since I've lost weight. Debating if I want to do that tonight or tomorrow morning. I really just don't like shopping, and the last time I bought a bathing suit specifically a couple of the store employees made fun of me. I'm not overweight and never have been but I am 'skinny fat' and have a really annoying stomach pooch I haven't managed to get rid of yet. It makes me very self conscious at the best of times, which is why I don't really go swimming much anymore even though I love it, especially at the beach.
Sounds like a fun thing. And I hear you on disliking shopping. Especially clothing shopping. Maybe three times a year, if that... 'course, I'm actually fat. I'm what happens when lard gets lazy. Which is why I always do the T-shirt cover when I swim thing, on the rare occasions I actually swim in public. (As for the store employees mocking you, that's when you take down names and go to the manager with "concerns." Unacceptable behavior, and it probably has cost them sales before you and will after you.)
Well, it's a sunny Saturday afternoon. The house is in that weird zone where it's uncomfortably humid and warm, but running a fan will chill me. It being Saturday, I'm kinda coastin' through the day. Got a nice snooze-in, at least, partially offset by issues staying asleep.
Just finished reading a book that started with potential, but became rather bland and a little dumbed down by the end. I've come to expect more than this from, even from middle grade fiction. Guess I'll write up my review...