Life is such a fragile thing. One day you're there and then the next, simply gone.
My family made the decision to remove my uncle from life support and donate his kidneys tonight. There's just no one home anymore. It was a fast decision because he had severe brain swelling, if we wanted to do any life saving measures it would have had to be done immediately. But if there's no quality, is it a life at all? He would have been in a coma for the rest of his life. Decided it was best to just let him go.
As for me, I still went to work. There was nothing I could do, and frankly those discussions were things for his mother, brothers and sister, not his niece.
I didn't want to sit around dwelling on it all day, so I went in to take care of my guys and keep the DM from blowing his top over the amount of OT the other dispatcher has been racking up with our ops manager away.
I usually leave early on Friday but ended up leaving at my normal time. Our one cover driver ended up doing a whole extra route today and got stuck in horrendous Boston traffic on the way back. He's such a sweetheart; most drivers will just drop off their paperwork and take off, especially when they're running late, but not V. He took the time to chat with me for a few minutes. I told him about what was going on, honestly it did comfort me a little. He also told me he's moving to a new apartment. I think I'll try to set aside some time to make something for him as a housewarming gift.
In case you're wondering, he's not the driver I'm still crushing on right now. I've got about 20 or so drivers total, and of those maybe 6-7 will actually talk to me on a regular basis for things other than business. It's still a bit tough seeing them so friendly with the other dispatchers, but I always remind myself I've been here less than 4 months, and they've been here for years. It takes time.
And yeah, I'm rambling a little bit. I didn't really sleep last night, I'm just really tired. I got stuck in traffic on my way home too, and then my mom filled me in on the situation once I finally made it back. I haven't eaten dinner yet and probably won't even though I should. Just not hungry.
I think I'm going to try to get some rest for now, there's going to be a lot to do in the coming days.