Hi everyone . . . I’m new here, have been edified by postings all over this site . . . forgive me for spilling my guts, but I hope you all can help me.
I’m working on a series of fantasy novels, have been for years. I keep changing it, so it’s never ready. One of the main reasons for this is my push-pull relationship with God. I want to give my writing to Him. I want my work to be for His glory. But though it does have a Christian theme, the characters in the work have a life of their own, and my emotional/psychological connection to them is tighter than I can explain. Let’s just say it worries me.
Is it idolatry? Or is it a gift that God will take from me to test me? I pray and pray for the faith to yield this up to Him, but my fear of losing these characters from my heart, that he will take the work from me somehow, is paralyzing.
I am afraid God will make me sacrifice it. Ironically, the theme of the work is that true redemption is achieved by letting go, in faith, of the thing you value most. The one thing I can’t seem to do!
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I’m working on a series of fantasy novels, have been for years. I keep changing it, so it’s never ready. One of the main reasons for this is my push-pull relationship with God. I want to give my writing to Him. I want my work to be for His glory. But though it does have a Christian theme, the characters in the work have a life of their own, and my emotional/psychological connection to them is tighter than I can explain. Let’s just say it worries me.
Is it idolatry? Or is it a gift that God will take from me to test me? I pray and pray for the faith to yield this up to Him, but my fear of losing these characters from my heart, that he will take the work from me somehow, is paralyzing.
I am afraid God will make me sacrifice it. Ironically, the theme of the work is that true redemption is achieved by letting go, in faith, of the thing you value most. The one thing I can’t seem to do!
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