Forgive me if this is the wrong forum for this question, but I was not sure where else to put this.
I will be ePublishing my first book very soon and while I am very excited, I am also worried. My MC is agnostic and did not enjoy her Catholic upbringing. I knew when I created this character, she would not be a firm believer in God. I'm not quite sure why, but it seemed to fit.
Which is kind of odd because I do believe in God. I consider myself spiritual but not religious. Although I was raised Catholic, I do not complain about it. What I've written is a total contradiction to what I believe.
Granted, at one point in my book, the MC does go to a church to pray because of what she is going through, but that is it. But overall, I feel like a total hypocrite for having created an agnostic character. Like I said, it made sense when I began writing, but now its a contradiction to my beliefs.
No, my book is not a commentary on faith - though I have a feeling the sequels may head in that direction to some degree.
Am I a hypocrite? Am I a fool for having done this? I could've made the MC a casual believer who never really gave faith much thought. I am not able to change that because I already sent copies of my eBook to blog reviewers. I also wonder how my readers may react. What if I have to explain that I actually do believe in God despite my agnostic overtones in my book? Wouldn't that baffle people?
I guess one reason why I made the MC agnostic was because it made her more appealing to the man she is dating who is secretly a vampire. He tells her that her doubts would make her accept being a vampire because she has no God to answer to. But then, I mention how the original vampires came about later on, and it basically describes them being transformed by their tribal gods. So, maybe my book is actually a subconscious commentary on religion and faith. Funny how I didn't realize it until recently. :/ I saw it as a commentary on abusive relationships, which it is first and foremost. Even my beta readers and editors did not point out the subtle religious commentary.
Anyway, do I really need to explain myself to anyone, if it comes to that? I just feel like I've contradicted myself big time and it doesn't make sense.
I will be ePublishing my first book very soon and while I am very excited, I am also worried. My MC is agnostic and did not enjoy her Catholic upbringing. I knew when I created this character, she would not be a firm believer in God. I'm not quite sure why, but it seemed to fit.
Which is kind of odd because I do believe in God. I consider myself spiritual but not religious. Although I was raised Catholic, I do not complain about it. What I've written is a total contradiction to what I believe.
Granted, at one point in my book, the MC does go to a church to pray because of what she is going through, but that is it. But overall, I feel like a total hypocrite for having created an agnostic character. Like I said, it made sense when I began writing, but now its a contradiction to my beliefs.
No, my book is not a commentary on faith - though I have a feeling the sequels may head in that direction to some degree.
Am I a hypocrite? Am I a fool for having done this? I could've made the MC a casual believer who never really gave faith much thought. I am not able to change that because I already sent copies of my eBook to blog reviewers. I also wonder how my readers may react. What if I have to explain that I actually do believe in God despite my agnostic overtones in my book? Wouldn't that baffle people?
I guess one reason why I made the MC agnostic was because it made her more appealing to the man she is dating who is secretly a vampire. He tells her that her doubts would make her accept being a vampire because she has no God to answer to. But then, I mention how the original vampires came about later on, and it basically describes them being transformed by their tribal gods. So, maybe my book is actually a subconscious commentary on religion and faith. Funny how I didn't realize it until recently. :/ I saw it as a commentary on abusive relationships, which it is first and foremost. Even my beta readers and editors did not point out the subtle religious commentary.
Anyway, do I really need to explain myself to anyone, if it comes to that? I just feel like I've contradicted myself big time and it doesn't make sense.