My once-a-month critique group just ended. It was my month to be critiqued. I sat listening as the rest of the group discussed my story. They speak of under currents and plots and threads and characters having arcs and stuff I just don't get. They speak of all these things I didn't know I was doing. I feel I should feel good about it...that I get these things between my lines and that they all seemed to pull the same stuff out of it...but I feel more like a big fake than anything else. I don't know how I could do all these things without setting out to do them and I don't know if I should argue with them and say, "wasn't me". I was sitting there in awe of what they were telling me...but then I just started to feel unattached to my own work. How could I have missed everything? They speak of nuance and other things and I become puzzled. Do you ever get the feeling that your readers are reading something other than the piece you wrote? How do you deal with that? Do you try to convince them that it was all accidental...do you try to say that you didn't intend what they got out of it, but that you intended this and that instead? I guess it's up to the reader to take out of a story what they will...but how could I be so blind to all this under current stuff...it just sounded so pretentious...
Do you ever feel completely lost like you have no goddamned idea what you're doing? When you do, do you just go along for the ride? How can I own what I write when it's not what they're reading?
KTC's meltdown #275
Do you ever feel completely lost like you have no goddamned idea what you're doing? When you do, do you just go along for the ride? How can I own what I write when it's not what they're reading?
KTC's meltdown #275