Hi everyone,
I suppose those who read this post will be surprised to see me back. Roughly four months have gone by and I've become a very different man. For one thing, I found the religious faith that works best for me, and I don't intend to try to win converts, at least not here. For another thing, at the request of several of my close friends, I've asked my psychiatrist about anti-anxiety medications. I'm presently taking Magnesium to calm me down. It works, very well, so I will likely be less of a bother to most of the people here than I used to be.
In finding my religious niche, as it were, I have also found some self-confidence that I severely lacked over the last twenty or so years. I found out also, that I can humble myself without taking away my dignity. The main reason for my stand-offish attitude, was pride and a feeling that if I did not win an argument -- many times at all costs -- I would lose what precious dignity I might have possessed at the time.
Also, I've come to realize I don't need other people's approval of me, to be good and right with both myself and with others.
Finally, I've learned to grow up. In taking major responsibilities in my own personal situations, I have found a sense of accomplishment and thus, self-worth increases dramatically within me.
So those are some of the things that have happened to me over the last four months or so. I can only say I am a better person for the changes, and also that I wish to at least try to reconcile myself with those on this board that I have offended over the last three years. My pride, and the need to be right, has alienated me from a lot of you, and I see that clearly now, for the first time, to the extent that I am willing to do something about it.
My grateful thanks to Mac, for allowing me to come back, and my humble apologies to all whom I have hurt over the years. If you're willing to forgive, I will much appreciate it. If not, I will understand. But in any case, I needed to get that off my chest.
Sincerely,
Sean D. Schaffer
I suppose those who read this post will be surprised to see me back. Roughly four months have gone by and I've become a very different man. For one thing, I found the religious faith that works best for me, and I don't intend to try to win converts, at least not here. For another thing, at the request of several of my close friends, I've asked my psychiatrist about anti-anxiety medications. I'm presently taking Magnesium to calm me down. It works, very well, so I will likely be less of a bother to most of the people here than I used to be.
In finding my religious niche, as it were, I have also found some self-confidence that I severely lacked over the last twenty or so years. I found out also, that I can humble myself without taking away my dignity. The main reason for my stand-offish attitude, was pride and a feeling that if I did not win an argument -- many times at all costs -- I would lose what precious dignity I might have possessed at the time.
Also, I've come to realize I don't need other people's approval of me, to be good and right with both myself and with others.
Finally, I've learned to grow up. In taking major responsibilities in my own personal situations, I have found a sense of accomplishment and thus, self-worth increases dramatically within me.
So those are some of the things that have happened to me over the last four months or so. I can only say I am a better person for the changes, and also that I wish to at least try to reconcile myself with those on this board that I have offended over the last three years. My pride, and the need to be right, has alienated me from a lot of you, and I see that clearly now, for the first time, to the extent that I am willing to do something about it.
My grateful thanks to Mac, for allowing me to come back, and my humble apologies to all whom I have hurt over the years. If you're willing to forgive, I will much appreciate it. If not, I will understand. But in any case, I needed to get that off my chest.
Sincerely,
Sean D. Schaffer
Welcome home. I'm so glad to hear you're doing well.
