Okay, I know some of you are probably going to laugh at me, but, yeah. I'm having a sort of rough time.
I'm in eleventh grade (for you non-U.S. folks, high school ends after twelth, than college). I can't stand school anymore. I've been pissed off at school before, but I'm getting to the point where I literally can't stand it.
My classes are hell. My Spanish teacher doesn't speak English and, after three years of hs Spanish, I don't speak Spanish at all. I'm the girl who's always gotten all A's, now I'm failing AP Chemistry and I can't even care. I go to a college prep school where not succeeding is not. an. option. I'm looking at super-selective schools and there's no. effing. way I'll get in with my grades.
I can't get my math SAT score above 620 (out of 800.) My writing is 770....but of course colleges don't even care about the writing part.
And then even with all this fuss about college and all my stressing about how my laziness and attitude are going to affect my opportunities of going to college...there's this huge part of me that just doesn't care. School is not my thing. I have a friend who loves to learn, and he's so exciting to go to college and grad school and then teach for the rest of his life. I HATE learning. I always have.
I just don't know what to do. My parents are freaking out at me about AP Chem, I'm never going to get into a good college, and all I want to do is curl up by myself and write books.
I feel like I have no options here.
I'm in eleventh grade (for you non-U.S. folks, high school ends after twelth, than college). I can't stand school anymore. I've been pissed off at school before, but I'm getting to the point where I literally can't stand it.
My classes are hell. My Spanish teacher doesn't speak English and, after three years of hs Spanish, I don't speak Spanish at all. I'm the girl who's always gotten all A's, now I'm failing AP Chemistry and I can't even care. I go to a college prep school where not succeeding is not. an. option. I'm looking at super-selective schools and there's no. effing. way I'll get in with my grades.
I can't get my math SAT score above 620 (out of 800.) My writing is 770....but of course colleges don't even care about the writing part.
And then even with all this fuss about college and all my stressing about how my laziness and attitude are going to affect my opportunities of going to college...there's this huge part of me that just doesn't care. School is not my thing. I have a friend who loves to learn, and he's so exciting to go to college and grad school and then teach for the rest of his life. I HATE learning. I always have.
I just don't know what to do. My parents are freaking out at me about AP Chem, I'm never going to get into a good college, and all I want to do is curl up by myself and write books.
I feel like I have no options here.