Twin beds unmade. My brother, four years younger, slept in the other; stuffed animals piled high on his. A dresser, top drawers held my clothes, the lower ones he could reach. A toy-box of wooden slats, cowboy on a bronco whipping a lasso printed on its face, held pieces of broken toys in sizes from large to the very small. The wooden floor was seldom visible through discarded clothing and playthings. The thin veneer door was cracked from the previous tenants and stuck firmly to the wood grain was a gob of some unidentifiable grape colored hard substance. I hated that gob. I tried to clean it off but I never made a dent. Playing turned to fighting squelched by punishment. Always my fault, the older and then “Clean up this mess!” and everything was pushed under the beds and into the closet until the next day when it came out again in the search for the favorite toy and then the playing and the fighting and the starting of it all again. A window that I learned to use silently at night as an exit. Until I was fifteen and then it wasn’t my room any more, not my house, not my family, not for years.