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As the title says. Right now I am at a standstill. I want to write, but am constantly paralyized by fear. For a while, I was convinced that my fear was 100% justified and that there was this overwhelming bias against the kind of stories I wanted to write that they where, essentually, doomed by concept. However, thanks to all of you here I was made to realize that notion was consructuted in my mind rather then based in fact. So that half of the battle has been won. However, now the old fear has been replaced by the fact that I feel what I want to write is too "hard" for somebody of my skill level to pull off, and once again I am caught in the same rut of fear but with a different coat of paint.
I realize that this fear is all in my head, but nothing I can do will make it go away. It will always be there no matter how hard I try and silence it. It will always be telling me I'm not good enough and my ideas are too difficult/ambitious. So thats why I'm turning to all of you. I want to start writing, I really do, but I don't think I can push my way through this overwhelming fear without somebody there to help me through the early stages.
I do believe that once I actually get writing and see that I can write what I want to, that the fear will be silenced. However, as of now, I can't get it to shut up, and as a result to take that crucial first step I feel I need an external motivator in the form of a writing buddy and/or mentor who can help me write through this massive overwhelming fear I have and get to the point where I finally am feeling positive enough that the fear can't control me.
Ideally, what I am looking for is a person who can hold me accountable to ACTUALLY WRITE. I'm not looking for somebody to tell me reasons why I should. I know why I should, I know I want to and I know the fear is in my head. I am primarily looking for a person who can actually go and say "I want X written and given to me by Y date." Somebody to, essentially, set hard deadlines and make me stick to them so I actually write instead of talk myself out of doing it for whatever the reason of the day may be.
I'd also, if at all possible, I'd like this person to not just hold me accountable/make me write through my fear but also actually look at the work I send them and give me some constructive criticism so I can get better. In return for these services, I'll BETA read and do similar things for you. It will be a give and take relationship.
Anyway, I really do want to start writing, but as of now my fear is so overwhelming that I feel this approach is the only one that will actually get me writing, so if anybody would be willing to help me work through my fear I'd be grateful.
I realize that this fear is all in my head, but nothing I can do will make it go away. It will always be there no matter how hard I try and silence it. It will always be telling me I'm not good enough and my ideas are too difficult/ambitious. So thats why I'm turning to all of you. I want to start writing, I really do, but I don't think I can push my way through this overwhelming fear without somebody there to help me through the early stages.
I do believe that once I actually get writing and see that I can write what I want to, that the fear will be silenced. However, as of now, I can't get it to shut up, and as a result to take that crucial first step I feel I need an external motivator in the form of a writing buddy and/or mentor who can help me write through this massive overwhelming fear I have and get to the point where I finally am feeling positive enough that the fear can't control me.
Ideally, what I am looking for is a person who can hold me accountable to ACTUALLY WRITE. I'm not looking for somebody to tell me reasons why I should. I know why I should, I know I want to and I know the fear is in my head. I am primarily looking for a person who can actually go and say "I want X written and given to me by Y date." Somebody to, essentially, set hard deadlines and make me stick to them so I actually write instead of talk myself out of doing it for whatever the reason of the day may be.
I'd also, if at all possible, I'd like this person to not just hold me accountable/make me write through my fear but also actually look at the work I send them and give me some constructive criticism so I can get better. In return for these services, I'll BETA read and do similar things for you. It will be a give and take relationship.
Anyway, I really do want to start writing, but as of now my fear is so overwhelming that I feel this approach is the only one that will actually get me writing, so if anybody would be willing to help me work through my fear I'd be grateful.
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