I know that. Just about everything is derivative in some fashion. I'm waffling between two manuscripts, about 25k into both (one Urban Fantasy, one plan old Fantasy), and the zeal I'd been feeling for both of them is rapidly evaporating. It's not for lack of a love of writing - I finished a 260k or so manuscript no problem. I just look over my outlines and my thoughts and think: Why?
When I'm discussing my recent reads that I'm excited about with friends, there's always something we can latch onto about why we love them so much. I look at my stuff and know no one is ever going to say the same about it. That's not to say that everything has to be the best of the best, and there's a place of something that's well written and simply good, but I feel like there's no hope of rising above mediocrity when I go over my notes. There's no wow factor, there's nothing to set it apart from the rest of the flock. That I'm going to be met with "So, it's another Urban Fantasy novel?" or "Ah, another genre fiction attempt."
It saps the will to write. I feel like I should be more creative than I am, but maybe that's just the level of my skills - blazingly mediocre. Maybe the only solution is to keep writing tepid stuff until it's worked out of the system, but it certainly doesn't make one excited to do so.
When I'm discussing my recent reads that I'm excited about with friends, there's always something we can latch onto about why we love them so much. I look at my stuff and know no one is ever going to say the same about it. That's not to say that everything has to be the best of the best, and there's a place of something that's well written and simply good, but I feel like there's no hope of rising above mediocrity when I go over my notes. There's no wow factor, there's nothing to set it apart from the rest of the flock. That I'm going to be met with "So, it's another Urban Fantasy novel?" or "Ah, another genre fiction attempt."
It saps the will to write. I feel like I should be more creative than I am, but maybe that's just the level of my skills - blazingly mediocre. Maybe the only solution is to keep writing tepid stuff until it's worked out of the system, but it certainly doesn't make one excited to do so.