Does anyone else find it really hard to write a forum post explaining why you're struggling to write fiction?
Anyway, on another forum I half-jokingly wrote a list of my personal 'rules' for self-sabotage. They go something like this:
1) Don't start any new drafts because that's just procrastination from serious projects
2) Don't work on existing projects because they're so broken that I'm better off marking them down as 'experience' and starting something new
3) No random scenes. That's just a sneaky way of trying to break rule 1
4) Plan everything, because without planning I'll get stuck three days from now
5) Plan nothing, because if I try to plan I'll still be circling around the same problem a month from now
In short, I've managed to convince myself that it's impossible to work on anything at all. How do I destroy this self-sabotage monster? Is such a thing even possible or is this where my writing journey ends?
I feel like this post just labels me as someone who gives up and starts crying when things get a little bit hard, but I don't really know how to give a proper explanation. Sometimes it feels like I've been in a downward spiral for the last year and a bit, with all writing-related stuff just getting harder and harder. I've tried a lot of things to break out of it and I really hope I haven't tried everything because that would mean the end of my previous paragraph is true - this is where it ends. This is the last full stop in a story of abandoned first drafts and broken rewrites.
Anyway, on another forum I half-jokingly wrote a list of my personal 'rules' for self-sabotage. They go something like this:
1) Don't start any new drafts because that's just procrastination from serious projects
2) Don't work on existing projects because they're so broken that I'm better off marking them down as 'experience' and starting something new
3) No random scenes. That's just a sneaky way of trying to break rule 1
4) Plan everything, because without planning I'll get stuck three days from now
5) Plan nothing, because if I try to plan I'll still be circling around the same problem a month from now
In short, I've managed to convince myself that it's impossible to work on anything at all. How do I destroy this self-sabotage monster? Is such a thing even possible or is this where my writing journey ends?
I feel like this post just labels me as someone who gives up and starts crying when things get a little bit hard, but I don't really know how to give a proper explanation. Sometimes it feels like I've been in a downward spiral for the last year and a bit, with all writing-related stuff just getting harder and harder. I've tried a lot of things to break out of it and I really hope I haven't tried everything because that would mean the end of my previous paragraph is true - this is where it ends. This is the last full stop in a story of abandoned first drafts and broken rewrites.