first day back at real writing

A minor accomplishment compared to everything else posted here, but it has been years since I've done it. The rejection process finally wore me down and it has been three years since I wrote fiction (poems were still coming now and again, but not fiction). I thought my writing days might be over for good, and I'd come to terms with that. But then the urge struck me again, a solid thump that made me move forward.

I've been researching and, as always, it really makes the ideas bubble up for me, so I have my first few half-scenes written, out of order, but they're there. I didn't know if I'd be able to do it, honestly, after so long a break, but it's just like falling off a bike. It's a relief.

I had forgotten this physical feeling after a day's hard writing work, the ache in my neck and the feeling I'm out of some important neurochemical. At times writing is fun, but it's always draining, too. For now, I welcome that feeling back.

Thanks for the attagirls. Another good day today. I'm just about ready to cut off on-line distractions and dive in even more deeply

Thanks for the well-wishing!

I'm on the internet just one day before I go back to being without, and the novel is going well. Just under 25K since the first of the month, and I'm enjoying it. I forgot how much fun inventing and drafting was (revising sux, but I don't have to worry about that yet!) I like the characters, I like visiting the very different world every day, and I'm finding a good balance with writing just enough, not so much that I'm feeling drained every day.

I found that when the history of the rejection of my other novels popped up in my mind, it was easy to dismiss because I know that self-publishing on-line is possible now. I don't know a danged thing about it, but if I 1) finish this massive thing, 2) can't sell/get an agent yet again, it's no longer the tragedy it once once.

I appreciate the support, and thanks for mentioning that article, Phaeal.