My Strange Agent Crush

I am not sure where to post it...or even if I want to...I think it might come off as a little pathetic!

I was very proud of my novel...My beta-readers liked it, I had polished it fairly well, and figured it was ready to go out to agents.

I researched one agent and, well, fell in love. Not literally (erm, I think). I googled her and realized she has so much in common with me, as far as the books she represents, her sense of humor, her background, work ethic etc. In fact, she even lives in the same town I do! So at night, I dreamt of her (okay, maybe not).

Figuring it was written in the stars, I sent out one query letter for my novel. Just one. Obviously to her.

She answered back, lightning fast....she wants to see a partial! I of course am thrilled.

Well, here's the problem. Last night I was reading that novel, getting ready to print it out, and suddenly I noticed all these flaws and thinking how bad it was. Now, I have absolutely no confidence in it. And that stinks because I only have one shot with this dream agent. Blech.

How did that happen? How do I know it's really the best it can be and ready to go out? Does anyone else get this immobilizing fear just prior to sealing up the envelope and sending it out?

Thanks, guys!

That makes me feel better. The work is...most definitely...flawless because I've proofed it so much it runs thru my head as I sleep. This 837th time I read it, though, I got the feeling it's not as funny or interesting as it used to be.

I think your suggestion is a good one, bikergirl. I will probably read over the partial and give it to my beta-readers one more time to make sure I caught everything....then worry about the rest. It's ONLY 3 measly chapters, right?

And Matt, that was my fear EXACTLY! It's great to know that other writers feel that way, too.

Crossing my fingers and sending it out (soon)...