Hey, I dont mind sharing a bit, but I'm not sure how helpful it will be
I have bipolar and OCPD. I have had it since late teens, but was formally diagnosed two years ago. I have had various paranoid ideas at different stages, but only once have I had hallucinations and that was last year.
I was on the verge of a major depressive/manic episode (I was in a bit of a mixed state).
I was very jumpy and on edge and not sleeping, anxious, etc. At this point, I also became paranoid: Our fridge was having problems -- the seal thing wasnt working, as a result, the carrots kept going slimy. Anyway, I became convinced that the carrots going funny was a sign, proof that they "saw through me" and it was also an omen that bad things were going to happen to me. I am including this so you can get a feel for my state of mind. (I dont know what they were seeing through me, they just were and I knew I was going to be exposed. As what or for what, I have no idea, but it was very real).
Then, I started "seeing" dead mice around. I would just suddenly see a dead mouse on the floor of the lounge room out of the corner of my eye and then when I looked again, it would be gone. For a period of about a week, I would see about three or four a day in random spots. On the lawn, the road, the floor of the car. Everytime after seeing them though, I would look back and they wouldnt be there.
At this time, I believed what I saw, and knew it meant bad things were going to happen. I also knew deep down that no one else was aware of the dead mice, so I didnt say anything. It's hard to explain, knowing something is real, and yet knowing I shouldnt talk about it as it was only a sign for me or something.
incidentally, I also saw a dead mouse while in my psychaitrists office
but I wasnt' saying a word about it, as i didnt want to alert anyone that I was getting unwell. On this occasion (my mice hallucinations), I didnt end up having a full episode of mania or major depressive episode. I ended up using my Stay well Plan and managed to stave off a full blown incident. I only spoke of the mice and carrots to my husband a few months after, when I was able to see the incidents for what it was: my bipolar state and not real life.
now to your questions.
1. No one knew about the dead mice. I didnt talk about it and I was mostly by myself when I saw them. I think my reaction would have been noticable in my facial expressions only -- and even then, I didnt have a theatrical reaction, more a muted response (not that I wasnt unnerved). Although I was particularly jumpy anyway, in the weeks up to this. (whenever someone said my name, walked into a room, I'd be startled.)
2. Yes, I got to a full state of mania before anyone really knew I was sick. Although my parents were thinking I had post-natal depression, and then I was having anxiety/panic attacks/insomnia, etc and was diagnosed with Grave's disease, which I think masked a lot of my bi-polarness (or explained some of it away) so maybe i am not a good example of this? Anyway, everyone just thought I was stressed
I have only incuded the one story about my hallucinations, but I did some odd/unusual things in my late teens and masked it all. It was like I was living a secret life and now I realise I had minor episodes and no one really noticed apart from thinking I was a moody teenager, hyperactive teenager, etc. When my diagnosis came out, my family were able to look back and see that, yes, I suffered with bipolar as a late teen (from around 16yrs) but at the time they didnt pick up on it.
In other words, I hid my mental state from my family and friends for a long period of time
If you have any specific questions for me, I'm happy for you to PM me