I've read it all. I've been told time and time again that first time writers need to be under 100k. It is only the rare exception, more rare than winning the lottery, that get published if they dare go over.
So what's the damage? I have a 230K adult fantasy. The story arc does not work as separate books. And I could probably pare it down some but no way I'll be able to knock off 130,000 words without making it into something else entirely. I know that's not always a bad thing but hear me out before you decide if I'm just a naive writer without the skill to write something shorter (I know this post isn't a good example, but I CAN be consice).
So I'm in the dejection side of this forum without the rejection. I'm just preparing to send out a query (where I have NOT included word count on the advice of one of our friendly visiting agents).
Some days I just tell myself that there's a chance that I'll be that one in a million bright shining star that gets published regardless of word count. I laugh and say "take THAT Crime and Punishment!" I remind myself of all the contemporary first time authors I know who went wildly over the industry's acceptable word count for what they were writing: Terry Goodkind, Terry Brooks, J.K. Rowling, Stephenie Meyer... Most importantly I remind myself that I believe in my story. I have spent 14 years writing draft after draft. Before any of you give me the lecture that it's not about how long you spend on a novel, I know that. I would also like to add that I do NOT take that long to write anything else. I have also written other things, both novels and short stories, in the meantime, but I always come back to this story. I'm not just saying it's ready because of how long I spent or how hard I worked. I know those are irrelevant to the industry. I believe it's ready because, for the first time in 14 years, I am truly happy with it. I truly believe it is how it should be. Are there small edits and clarifications that could be done? Of course. There always are. But I feel this is finally the story in its true form.
But this is not one of the good days. This is one of those days where I read the industry standards and think about the agents that automatically reject based on word count. This is one of those days where I ask myself if I'm wasting my time even sending this out. Part of me says it's perfectly sensible to shelve this story and try one of my shorter ones. When I have more credits to my name I can try again. But I'd have to edit a shorter one, and I would just feel like a failure for not sending this one out. I would worry that I would somehow talk myself out of ever sending anything out. I remind myself that I'll never know if I never try.
I guess I'm fine with being rejected based on my writing. That's too subjective for me to feel like one person (or even 100 people) can tell me what everyone will like. I have actually sent things out before and gotten rejections. I was fine with getting rejections, even excited because it meant I was trying. But I stopped sending out those things because I personally stopped liking them. This wasn't based on the rejections at all because they were all form rejections.
But the thought of being rejected based on word count just makes me feel so hopeless. I keep thinking that even if I'm lucky enough to get someone to ask for the full manuscript, they'll reject it the moment they see it, no matter how much they like the idea or the writing.
Sigh...so I have to confess I'm mostly looking to commiserate with anyone else feeling the same. I've done all the research I can. You can throw more numbers and stats at me if you want (although, I won't say no to a few more positive ones if you've got em'. No? I thought so...). You could tell me that obviously I have to edit/ cut into separate books/ try a different book. It will all be stuff I've heard and thought myself a million times before.
Right now I just need someone else who understands.
So what's the damage? I have a 230K adult fantasy. The story arc does not work as separate books. And I could probably pare it down some but no way I'll be able to knock off 130,000 words without making it into something else entirely. I know that's not always a bad thing but hear me out before you decide if I'm just a naive writer without the skill to write something shorter (I know this post isn't a good example, but I CAN be consice).
So I'm in the dejection side of this forum without the rejection. I'm just preparing to send out a query (where I have NOT included word count on the advice of one of our friendly visiting agents).
Some days I just tell myself that there's a chance that I'll be that one in a million bright shining star that gets published regardless of word count. I laugh and say "take THAT Crime and Punishment!" I remind myself of all the contemporary first time authors I know who went wildly over the industry's acceptable word count for what they were writing: Terry Goodkind, Terry Brooks, J.K. Rowling, Stephenie Meyer... Most importantly I remind myself that I believe in my story. I have spent 14 years writing draft after draft. Before any of you give me the lecture that it's not about how long you spend on a novel, I know that. I would also like to add that I do NOT take that long to write anything else. I have also written other things, both novels and short stories, in the meantime, but I always come back to this story. I'm not just saying it's ready because of how long I spent or how hard I worked. I know those are irrelevant to the industry. I believe it's ready because, for the first time in 14 years, I am truly happy with it. I truly believe it is how it should be. Are there small edits and clarifications that could be done? Of course. There always are. But I feel this is finally the story in its true form.
But this is not one of the good days. This is one of those days where I read the industry standards and think about the agents that automatically reject based on word count. This is one of those days where I ask myself if I'm wasting my time even sending this out. Part of me says it's perfectly sensible to shelve this story and try one of my shorter ones. When I have more credits to my name I can try again. But I'd have to edit a shorter one, and I would just feel like a failure for not sending this one out. I would worry that I would somehow talk myself out of ever sending anything out. I remind myself that I'll never know if I never try.
I guess I'm fine with being rejected based on my writing. That's too subjective for me to feel like one person (or even 100 people) can tell me what everyone will like. I have actually sent things out before and gotten rejections. I was fine with getting rejections, even excited because it meant I was trying. But I stopped sending out those things because I personally stopped liking them. This wasn't based on the rejections at all because they were all form rejections.
But the thought of being rejected based on word count just makes me feel so hopeless. I keep thinking that even if I'm lucky enough to get someone to ask for the full manuscript, they'll reject it the moment they see it, no matter how much they like the idea or the writing.
Sigh...so I have to confess I'm mostly looking to commiserate with anyone else feeling the same. I've done all the research I can. You can throw more numbers and stats at me if you want (although, I won't say no to a few more positive ones if you've got em'. No? I thought so...). You could tell me that obviously I have to edit/ cut into separate books/ try a different book. It will all be stuff I've heard and thought myself a million times before.
Right now I just need someone else who understands.