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I've recently switched from novels to screenplays, and I'm sort of feeling the need for a rant.
Background info: I'm 18, freshman in college, and earlier in the year, I realized that my second novel was unsalvageable. Not the end of the world, but depressing.
So I reassessed my situation. I wanted to try something utterly different, I loved movies, and I liked the length of screenplays, and was intrigued by their layout.
So I read a bunch of screenplays, read a couple of how-to books, and planned out my first idea.
Then, after 8 pages, I trashed idea #1, after another 8 pages, I trashed idea #2, and now I'm trying desperately to decide whether I love idea #3.
I've never had trouble committing to an idea before. I've never had so little confidence in myself. I'm starting to ask myself those big questions: "Do I have what it takes to be a writer?" "Do I even want to try?" "Why bother if the chances of anyone ever enjoying my work are so low?"
Writing used to be so fun. Publishing didn't even matter. Just fitting together the puzzle, watching my characters interact, feeling that flood of excitement the 80th time I read chapter 5, made me so happy. Now, my desire to write just feels like a curse.
I don't think that my switch to screenplays is the only reason for this switch. Watching that second novel go south was such a blow to me. I guess before then, I always thought that even if my work had problems or was unpublishable, I would be able to polish it enough that at least I liked and was proud of my work. That coupled with my sudden understanding of the financial realities of writing--I'd known before, but had never doubted my ability to eventually make it to the top--have really fucked me up.
Does any one have any kind words of advice?
(This isn't strictly novel-related, but I'm sure a lot of the writers here have had similar experiences, so please don't delete me!)
Background info: I'm 18, freshman in college, and earlier in the year, I realized that my second novel was unsalvageable. Not the end of the world, but depressing.
So I reassessed my situation. I wanted to try something utterly different, I loved movies, and I liked the length of screenplays, and was intrigued by their layout.
So I read a bunch of screenplays, read a couple of how-to books, and planned out my first idea.
Then, after 8 pages, I trashed idea #1, after another 8 pages, I trashed idea #2, and now I'm trying desperately to decide whether I love idea #3.
I've never had trouble committing to an idea before. I've never had so little confidence in myself. I'm starting to ask myself those big questions: "Do I have what it takes to be a writer?" "Do I even want to try?" "Why bother if the chances of anyone ever enjoying my work are so low?"
Writing used to be so fun. Publishing didn't even matter. Just fitting together the puzzle, watching my characters interact, feeling that flood of excitement the 80th time I read chapter 5, made me so happy. Now, my desire to write just feels like a curse.
I don't think that my switch to screenplays is the only reason for this switch. Watching that second novel go south was such a blow to me. I guess before then, I always thought that even if my work had problems or was unpublishable, I would be able to polish it enough that at least I liked and was proud of my work. That coupled with my sudden understanding of the financial realities of writing--I'd known before, but had never doubted my ability to eventually make it to the top--have really fucked me up.
Does any one have any kind words of advice?
(This isn't strictly novel-related, but I'm sure a lot of the writers here have had similar experiences, so please don't delete me!)