First of all...
I love you all! Sorry. So, so sorry. That was the mania talking. I sometime experience errant bursts of exuberant emotion. Yes, I most certainly do have hypnogogia, and in ample doses. 30 to 40% of all people, according to MY Google Search, experience it sometime in their life. I experience it 20-40 times a month. It's because I am, A) an insomniac. And B) Bi-polar mixed. That's right, I--Little, old Lantern--have Sylvia Plath syndrome. Only I have a much severe case. At least she got a break in the monotony, pingponging between funks and highs. I, on the other hand, experience both depression and mania at THE SAME TIME, ALL THE TIME, EVERY DAY, EVERY MOMENT. Cool-O, huh? I have, in the past six years, been on 35 different anti-Ds and anti-Ps. I've run the antidepressant alphabet, from Alvyrin to Zyprexa. I've been on pills that've slapped an extra 90 pounds to my 100-pound frame. I've been on pills that give me small seizures every time I get horny. I've been on pills that rob me of my equilibrium and pills that make me go to the potty 250 times a day (that's known as bloody-hole syndrome, colloquially speaking). My primary symptoms are: hyper speech patterns, delusions, paranoia, IBS, irritability, occasional hallucinations, suicidal thinking, the works. Not that I'm depressed about all this (believe me, the mania takes care of that). Unfortunately, it does make my anti-social and a bit of a loner, meaning that, in order to find the social acceptance I so dearly crave, I have to seek...other sources. Like last night, I snuck out of the house round midnight, spent a couple of hours gathering toads and then told them all about my day, for three hours. They were very attentive. Why am I telling all this to you folk, instead of to some quack? A) You guys know me; I'm Will; remember? Cranky Will, Naughty Will, Feisty Will (nothing? really?) B) I have no health insurance, can't afford it (Ironic, isn't it? I'm a newspaperman, the world's most hated occupation, yet I can't afford to see a doctor for the antidotes to all those poisoned-pen letters cranks mail me) C) This is the Office Party section. You're allowed to talk about non-literary stuff here. This is a no-taboo, pure-tangential zone. This is the place where people who know each other here can get to really each other. And since you folk know me, in all my various guises and incarnations, I'm letting you know a little bit more about me (By the way, I'm writing for the Amherst Bee, I think). Furthermore...I LOVE YOU ALL!...Damn, there it goes, again. Anyhoo, to keep the self-absorption express chugging, I just graduated from college, 3.65 G.P.A. (it turns out I have no minor, go fig), and am searching for a job, financial coffers and parental pride withering by the moment. So, if y'all don't mind, keep your ears to the ground and tuned in to any potential newspaper jobs. I'm just scraping by on a couple of piddling freelance jobs at present. I NEED JOB NOW, POR FAVOR. If any of you guys are editors and want to hire a guy who knows his stuff, some stuff-shirted college boy with varied experience, please, dudinsky, give me a rink (I'm living in Titanic...er, I mean Buffalo...NY. Someone get off this doomed ocean liner). Oooh, I just bottomed out. Hmm, well, the depression's setting in. Gotta jet. Thanks for letting me pump youse guyses ears off for a bit. Laters.
Sincerely,
Bawdy Jack, Springheel Jack, Saucy Jack