Yes, my husband and I discussed this, yes, I decided to go off birth control in January, yes, we are financially okay, yes this was expected, but...
BUT
OMG I AM PREGNANT. I am freaking out here. No way we're going to tell anyone we know in real life until it's been a month or two, but... AAAAAAGH! I am happy - I was grinning like a fool 10 minutes ago when I saw those two red lines - and yet totally, utterly freaked out. Like, there's no going back now. This is it. And am I ready? Can I do this? How can I POSSIBLY BE A MOM?! Who would let me do that?!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
I'm going to screw up! I can't possibly be responsible for another human being!
I guess... I guess I was just really expecting to have to wait for this until I REALLY REALLY wanted a baby super bad. My grandma took a decade to get pregnant. My mother tried for several years before I was born. Everyone I know is dying to have a kid and going through years of fertility treatments.
And me?
I go off birth control thinking, well, it happens when it happens, I just won't think about it, and maybe in a year or two... and if it doesn't happen, we'll look at adoption, whatever...
No. No year or two. 4 months.
BUT
OMG I AM PREGNANT. I am freaking out here. No way we're going to tell anyone we know in real life until it's been a month or two, but... AAAAAAGH! I am happy - I was grinning like a fool 10 minutes ago when I saw those two red lines - and yet totally, utterly freaked out. Like, there's no going back now. This is it. And am I ready? Can I do this? How can I POSSIBLY BE A MOM?! Who would let me do that?!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
I'm going to screw up! I can't possibly be responsible for another human being!
I guess... I guess I was just really expecting to have to wait for this until I REALLY REALLY wanted a baby super bad. My grandma took a decade to get pregnant. My mother tried for several years before I was born. Everyone I know is dying to have a kid and going through years of fertility treatments.
And me?
I go off birth control thinking, well, it happens when it happens, I just won't think about it, and maybe in a year or two... and if it doesn't happen, we'll look at adoption, whatever...
No. No year or two. 4 months.