It's hard when a loved one dies, even when it's expected...

My grandmother passed away yesterday evening... She was 94 & had been in a nursing home for about 12 years. Over the course of this time she steadily deteriorated due to dementia, but up until 2 weeks ago she was still able to recognize family members and carry on conversations fairly well.

Apparently her body just decided to give up, and she started having some kind of slow internal bleeding. No one wanted to put her through terrible tests and painful procedures in her frail condition, so hospice came in to make sure she wasn't in too much pain & give her extra special care, and we've all been to see her a lot these 2 weeks & said our goodbyes.

Still, when the call came to say she had gone in her sleep late yesterday evening, I couldn't help but break down. I went to see her, and she just looked so peaceful. She was always my favorite grandma... She lived next door my entire childhood, and I spend most of my time at her house. She taught me to cook and to garden... she always let me "help" in whatever she was doing, even though I must have been totally in the way. I have tons of wonderful memories to hold on to, but it's still hard to accept that she's really gone now.

Well, I just wanted to share that, cause you guys are always so nice Thanks for reading

Thank you all so very much for your kind words. I know she will always be with me, and part of me. I'm very glad we were able to be here for her to provide what comfort we could in her last days. My cousin even visited her yesterday afternoon and gave her a massage (she's a massage therapist), and even though she was asleep it seemed to help her relax & breathe easier.