I so feel your pain. I've always had a bit of attention deficit, so I hate re-reading anything. I'm not the kind of person that reads a story over and over again to begin with.
But I'll say this, the whole process forced me to be a better writer. It was the equivalent of learning to speak better by giving speeches. I never doubted my "stories". But I doubted my ability to tell my stories as good as others could. In fact, once I was so tempted to have a co-author, or sell my story shell to an established writer, looking for ideas. Now, I'm glad I didn't do either.
If I read you right, you sound a bit like me. Creative, but I never get things perfect on the first pass, or even a second. However, there is little more satisfying than when you get to a point where your story is something "you" can't put down.
At one time, I feel I was "Beta" dependent, having to have a Beta-reader give me positive feedback or my confidence would sink. Now, I have confidence. I know if ADHD old me can re-read the story and love it, it's got to be ready. What's really odd to me, is my Beta-readers, who are all intelligent women (Weird, I have no guy Beta readers) loved my stories when I thought they were clunky, and in need of severe revisions. Liking your own stories is as satisfying as learning to love yourself. You just feel better getting up in the morning.