How would someone develop panphobia? Is it a disorder that's with you when you're born, or does something extremely shocking has to happen to you in order to get it?
Others have given opinions on this, but I thought I'd share personal experience.
I have OCD (or should that be CDO? In my case, yeah, actually it should). Granted, mine is a mild, non-drug manageable form of it. I didn't realize this until after May 2006 when I was in a car accident and wound up dying - several times. Coming back from that and the therapy/rehab/time off work afterward, little things would bother me a lot.
Such as the bags of M&Ms I had in my cupboard. Mint M&Ms left over from Xmas. I always buy a bunch during the holidays so that I can have them all year long. I also had a bunch of dark M&Ms because I was afraid the company wouldn't support them.
Suddenly, having all those colors together, in one place, mixed up became too much. I spent hours going through all the bags and separating them out. Then came other things. The cabinets had to be rearranged so that like foods were with like foods. Boxes lined up appropriately by size and everything else. I was 'diagnosed' in 2007 after having to go to therapy for unrelated issues. The psychologist was less than impressed when - while talking about other issues - I began separating out his candy dish. So many different varieties of candy all mixed together. I didn't realize what he was getting at everytime (and there were numerous) times he asked "Did you want some candy?" Because I never did. I just didn't want them all together.
In thinking about it, I figured it had something to do with the accident. However, further thought and thinking about it and I realized it's something I've always had. My closet has always been organized by type of clothing and then color. Usually done in the Roy G Biv mold. I realized that after remembering comments from people when they came over to my apartment after I moved in for a birthday party. They all wanted to see my closet for some strange reason, and all left nodding their heads and whispering among themselves. I didn't get it until someone mentioned how "organized" my closet was. I just felt it was tidy.
Plus, before the accident I had a particular way of eating M&Ms. It was always color by color, separating the colors of a handful and then going in order of most color to least color. And would get - not upset - but slightly distressed if there was not an even amount of color because they had to be eaten two at a time.
Now...I see that the OCD was always with me...as far back as I can remember. It affects many parts of my life before and after the accident. It was just after the accident - when things begin to really bother me and stress me out, it becomes more prevelant. I have determined that the idea is that I must control "chaos" with order - as I can't in the events surrounding my life.
No, I don't have the 'must wash my hands fifteen times with new soap' or 'lock the door thirteen times or the oceans will dry up' variety. But when I'm in the grip of it, I do have the constant, nagging doubts that things aren't good unless I've checked them twice.
So, I see the bridge between nature and nurture varieties of mental disorders. Was I born wired this way or did something that happened in my childhood lay the foundation for the OCD? Unless it was being zonked in the head I doubt it. And that was never enough to cause even so much as a blackout. But, as a child, I would be more concerned with 'displaying' toys in a certain manner than playing with them. However, the 'nurture' part comes out under stress. The last time I got major bad news at the job, I went into full on OCD mode and wound up ordering a whole section of stuf that not only never needs to be organized but never stays organized by its very nature. But, it soothed me.
My coworkers like to laugh about it these days - and most times so do I. Until it happens and i realize that what I'm doing is not as helpful as I think it is.
I would say that your character with panphobia might have been born wired that way...but that it 'flares up' when things happen to trigger episodes.
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