I'm not counting on "Twue wuv" so much as someone to live my life with, so I won't be alone till the day I'm worm food.
My dating "pool" is so small a scanning electron microscope couldn't find it. I will be 25 in April and have never had a relationship with anyone, ever. Not even "Puppy Love" teenage stuff. There is just too much wrong/different or however else you want to phrase it. Oh, where to start:
1. I have extensive brain damage due to medical malpractice (Dr. Ego crushed my skull with forceps in a bid to impress his collegues by saving a baby in distress WITHOUT doing a c-section. My mom was torn up badly and I almost died) and going into Status Epiplepticus at age 4 for almost 20 minutes.
2. Said brain damage has caused me to have a severe math related LD, I will always be between a 3rd and 4rth grade level in math. I cannot balance a check book and need a calculator for the most basic things. College, for now, is out of the question.
3. Number 1 also caused me to have visual spatial and depth percentage deficiets. I walk into things, I trip over lines in the carpet and I can't drive.
4. I also have a condition called Ehlers Danlos Syndrome Type 3, a genetic condition that effects collagen, the glue that is NOT keeping me together. You know those people on Ripley's Believe it or not! who can fit into small boxes? That's this, but they don't show those people in the agony most of us experience. Because of the EDS I have: Dysautonomia (Autonomic Nervous System does not work properly), Gastroparesis (the muscles that control digestion don't work properly so I have to eat like a mouse), POTS Syndrome (my blood pressure can't keep up with othrostatic changes, ie: sitting, standing) and constant joint and ligament issues. It usually runs in families, but I'm the only one in mine. Geneticist pinned it down to my parents being in Germany in 1986 and marinating under the cloud from Chernobyl. When a mutated egg and a mutated sperm meet, instant genetic mess.
3. I'm also transgender (no surgery). I am 6ft tall, with broad shoulders and no hips, yet I'm female. I also have a deep voice and androgynous facial features. I have dressed and acted male since I was a toddler, I looked like a boy until I got boobs. Yet I'm attracted to guys. Plus, due to the EDS, I have the arms and legs of a spider monkey.
To add to the above I live in Texas, a state will known for tolerance.
I'm pale (I could live on the sun and still look like this, yeah Slovakian and Irish ancestors), have thin, spindly arms and legs, huge hands with long, thin fingers (actually medical condition: Arachtodachtoly "Spider fingers") with protruding veins, broad shouldered, straight female who dresses and acts like a man in a very conservative state. Not even getting into the LD or clumsiness.
My chances are 1 in .0000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000001
My dating "pool" is so small a scanning electron microscope couldn't find it. I will be 25 in April and have never had a relationship with anyone, ever. Not even "Puppy Love" teenage stuff. There is just too much wrong/different or however else you want to phrase it. Oh, where to start:
1. I have extensive brain damage due to medical malpractice (Dr. Ego crushed my skull with forceps in a bid to impress his collegues by saving a baby in distress WITHOUT doing a c-section. My mom was torn up badly and I almost died) and going into Status Epiplepticus at age 4 for almost 20 minutes.
2. Said brain damage has caused me to have a severe math related LD, I will always be between a 3rd and 4rth grade level in math. I cannot balance a check book and need a calculator for the most basic things. College, for now, is out of the question.
3. Number 1 also caused me to have visual spatial and depth percentage deficiets. I walk into things, I trip over lines in the carpet and I can't drive.
4. I also have a condition called Ehlers Danlos Syndrome Type 3, a genetic condition that effects collagen, the glue that is NOT keeping me together. You know those people on Ripley's Believe it or not! who can fit into small boxes? That's this, but they don't show those people in the agony most of us experience. Because of the EDS I have: Dysautonomia (Autonomic Nervous System does not work properly), Gastroparesis (the muscles that control digestion don't work properly so I have to eat like a mouse), POTS Syndrome (my blood pressure can't keep up with othrostatic changes, ie: sitting, standing) and constant joint and ligament issues. It usually runs in families, but I'm the only one in mine. Geneticist pinned it down to my parents being in Germany in 1986 and marinating under the cloud from Chernobyl. When a mutated egg and a mutated sperm meet, instant genetic mess.
3. I'm also transgender (no surgery). I am 6ft tall, with broad shoulders and no hips, yet I'm female. I also have a deep voice and androgynous facial features. I have dressed and acted male since I was a toddler, I looked like a boy until I got boobs. Yet I'm attracted to guys. Plus, due to the EDS, I have the arms and legs of a spider monkey.
To add to the above I live in Texas, a state will known for tolerance.
I'm pale (I could live on the sun and still look like this, yeah Slovakian and Irish ancestors), have thin, spindly arms and legs, huge hands with long, thin fingers (actually medical condition: Arachtodachtoly "Spider fingers") with protruding veins, broad shouldered, straight female who dresses and acts like a man in a very conservative state. Not even getting into the LD or clumsiness.
My chances are 1 in .0000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000001