First of all, don't cry.
Secondly . . . I've commented on this before, God, I don't remember where or when, which kind of sucks but I guess it's irrelevant. You tend to document every single effing thought, sneeze, blink or fart. . .not only the action or thought, but the step-by-step intricacies involved, right?
Every. Single. Little. Thing.
I can relate. Let me tell you this right now: STOP. Right now. Who the hell wants to go back through his/her novel, deleting every ridiculously unnecessary description/action?
Why put it in, if you're gonna take it out? (I speak from experience. Unfortunately.)
You know what helped me? This advice:
Give the reader credit. The reader doesn't need you to spell out every single effing thing. The reader has a brain (presumably
). The reader doesn't want--nor need--you, the writer, to explain every action, every nuance. The reader can make an occasional leap from point A to point B, as long as said leap is minor. In other words, if your mc's phone rings, you needn't write, "He walked to the phone, lifted the receiver from its base, pressed it to his ear and spoke into the bottom part of the phone thingie." Give the reader credit, and take pity. . .who wants to read boring details that one can easily surmise, if one has half a brain in one's thick, misshapen skull?
Be a thoughtful, mindful writer, and trust your readers. They deserve a little credit, after all, they're reading your stuff, aren't they?