Thanks, everybody. I was in the fetal position for most of the afternoon on Tuesday and consumed my weight in Ferrero Rochers. Yesterday, I felt much more positive about things. Today, I woke to a series of emails from my agent and packager that now has left me with a question to ponder:
Do we self-publish? What are your thoughts?
My instinct is a snobbish one, but I recoiled at the suggestion from the packager. Agent seemed less than thrilled but finally relented. She's having lunch today with one of the potential R&R editors, so it remains to be seem what will happen with that. I assume we'll revise and resubmit, but I also have steeled myself to the probability that she'll eventually pass again.
If she does pass, the packager is pushing for self-publishing. He can't try to sell the film/TV rights until then and he's champing at the bit. I have a mental block against self-publishing and see it as failure, but once I set the snobbery aside, there are three distinct advantages:
1) we don't have to make it YA and can write the story the way it should be told, not the way the genre dictates;
2) the packager can then try to sell the rights (which he feels confident he will - who knows?);
3) I am expecting some significant TV publicity next year. The book may be featured, possibly even heavily, and if I have something to promote, I could publicize the pre-sales in interviews.
What do you guys think? Is self-publishing failure? If the book doesn't sell well, even in the self-publishing ghetto (my biggest fear), am I out of the game forever? I'm mulling over worst-case scenarios on all fronts: the editor will pass on the R&R, the rights won't sell, the book won't sell, the show won't feature the book (or will feature it, and then I'll simply be branded a failed writer). Would love your advice.