This might seem weird...
My first book is in moderation on a self-publishing site right now. It'll take just 1-2 days to get it out on Amazon. I've spent 20$ to get the process sped up and get one exemplar of my book in paperback. You might say "Oh, 20$ isn't that much.", but I'm a student, I work for my father as a technical translator and the payment is very low. It was such a gamble to get those 20$ into my book, considering the fact, that I'll get only a quarter of the eBook's cost, the book will need to be sold 26 times to get me back to 0.
But that's not the main thing I'm sad about. It's not the fact that I won't get money from my book, I didn't write it for that. I'm sad that my book won't find its readers. Yeah, initially I started to write for myself to make my childhood dream come true. But what does it mean to me, if there's no one to read and appreciate it? At least a bit?
Now here's the question for all of you who's been reading this post. Did you ever feel that way? When you were standing right in front of the finish line, about to make your dream come true, did you get this wave of disappointment, sadness and lost all will and hope? Did it go away? Tell me what it was like for you. Is it really true that every book has its reader? Or is all that just made up crap to make every author feel safe until realization hits?
My first book is in moderation on a self-publishing site right now. It'll take just 1-2 days to get it out on Amazon. I've spent 20$ to get the process sped up and get one exemplar of my book in paperback. You might say "Oh, 20$ isn't that much.", but I'm a student, I work for my father as a technical translator and the payment is very low. It was such a gamble to get those 20$ into my book, considering the fact, that I'll get only a quarter of the eBook's cost, the book will need to be sold 26 times to get me back to 0.
But that's not the main thing I'm sad about. It's not the fact that I won't get money from my book, I didn't write it for that. I'm sad that my book won't find its readers. Yeah, initially I started to write for myself to make my childhood dream come true. But what does it mean to me, if there's no one to read and appreciate it? At least a bit?
Now here's the question for all of you who's been reading this post. Did you ever feel that way? When you were standing right in front of the finish line, about to make your dream come true, did you get this wave of disappointment, sadness and lost all will and hope? Did it go away? Tell me what it was like for you. Is it really true that every book has its reader? Or is all that just made up crap to make every author feel safe until realization hits?