I've posted several threads today trying to get my shit together with my current WIP and I think I've come to the conclusion that it has nothing to do with my MS, but rather myself.
I ended up crying this evening due to frustration that I may spend all of this time working on a MS and then realize that no one is going to give a shit about it. It's something that I'm passionate about and feel that it isn't represented well enough or in the way that it should be. I'm sure some of you have come across them, but I'm inquiring on my MS that is based around Irish mythology and I'm in this panic mode where I have this paranoia that there isn't a market for anybody who is interested in the intricacies of Irish mythology that has nothing to do with fairies. I'm telling myself it's because that there isn't enough POC in it, or the character is dry, or the MC's love interest may come off offensively, etc.
I don't know how to push passed the self doubt and fear that what I have to write won't resonate with anybody or the concept is too drab for anybody, let alone an agent, to find interesting. It's this paralyzing fear that my stories aren't good enough to share because of the reasons listed above.
I just don't know how to push passed it in spite of my passion for the work and I'm sick of having a headache tonight over it.
I ended up crying this evening due to frustration that I may spend all of this time working on a MS and then realize that no one is going to give a shit about it. It's something that I'm passionate about and feel that it isn't represented well enough or in the way that it should be. I'm sure some of you have come across them, but I'm inquiring on my MS that is based around Irish mythology and I'm in this panic mode where I have this paranoia that there isn't a market for anybody who is interested in the intricacies of Irish mythology that has nothing to do with fairies. I'm telling myself it's because that there isn't enough POC in it, or the character is dry, or the MC's love interest may come off offensively, etc.
I don't know how to push passed the self doubt and fear that what I have to write won't resonate with anybody or the concept is too drab for anybody, let alone an agent, to find interesting. It's this paralyzing fear that my stories aren't good enough to share because of the reasons listed above.
I just don't know how to push passed it in spite of my passion for the work and I'm sick of having a headache tonight over it.