I hope you're right.
MRF--I'm working on reducing my stress level too but it's not going well. But my eyes are okay today so I won't complain. Glad your stress is reduced. That's always a good thing.
Reducing my stress level didn't go well right away. It took a couple of years. The last year was brutal.
My therapist would encourage me with the image of hiking up a mountain. There's usually this part at the top where bedrock juts out. It's climbing at this point, rather than simple hiking. Sometimes you need help to make it that last distance. It's difficult, seriously challenging. But, as my therapist said, the view from the top is magnificent.
I'm not there yet. I still have to somehow get the house sold and have a decent sum of money left over after everything is paid off. I have to get my soon-to-be-ex-husband, who doesn't seem to think beyond himself in a way that I and the kids can understand, to agree to split whatever is left with me 60-40 because in my estimation, I've earned it. I have to get my editing business built back up so that it once again supports me.
I had some fantastic help this past year from the Department of Mental Health. They arranged for me to have a family therapist and parent partner. I learned to say "no" to the twins. I'm still working on that. I learned to stick up for myself.
The parent partner taught me to make lists of what I need to do. That has helped me stay focused. I've fallen out of the habit since I'm not meeting with them once a week any longer. But I think I will set aside to-do list time once a week.
I hope these bits and snatches of my story help.
I'd like to write about it more, but it is difficult. Memoir, I understand, is a very difficult form. But, I think without the help from DMH, I would have fallen off the edge of life. Now, at least I have some hope.
Here's to a year that is better than the one that is ending! Our rabbi introduced us last year to a spiritual practice called Mussar; I might have mentioned this somewhere. You pick a trait to work on in the coming year. I worked on kindness most of last year. And I think I'm going to continue with that this year. I'm good at being kind to others much of the time. Myself? Not so much.