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I find it still suspicious that there are now suicide notes found. Initially they said there were none, which partly fueled the murder speculation, and now there are notes (plural)?
I look at these high profile cases as a way to try understanding violence, predations, and possibly mental illness as a whole. Everyone has a story. I might now hear about the girl or guy that didn't see the highlights, but that doesnt mean Mr H's story doesn't have value. As a non-football fan, I was not wowed by his career. I vaguely heard about his arrest and chalked up to more pro sports violence. It wasn't until his apparent suicide that I read his story in full. It made me sad. And I don't want to be sad about him He had chances denied to so many wanting to rise from their circumstances. And yeah, his circumstances don't seem all that bad.
I don't know his whole story. But the fact he chose this life given all of his options makes me sad for him as a human being. And I kind of feel like crap for it. His victim(s) deserved better. But for whatever reasons, he didn't even seem to know 'better' for himself.
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Watermark: A Novel of the Middle Ages
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This is where we differ. I can absolutely see why he killed himself. He got away with shooting a man in the face. He had gotten away with shooting and killing 2 men.
He lost his life of wealth and privilege and was going to spend the rest of his life in prison because he killed a man for mentioning a double murder he was later acquitted of. Had he not killed Loyd he may never even have stood trial for the double murders.
Look at Ray Lewis, implicated in murder, plead guilty to obstruction of justice in those murders, but free from jail and still lauded as a hero. Since there is no concrete proof Hernandez was the trigger man who killed those 2 men, even if Odin Loyd had testified against him, Hernandez's trial may very well have ended the same way. Instead, Hernandez kills Loyd, leaves enough evidence that there was no way he couldn't be convicted and had to spend the rest of life in prison.
If he hadn't killed Odin Loyd in all probability Aaron Hernandez would be a free man.
There was little to no chance of his conviction being overturned, due to the overwhelming provable evidence against him. A quick summation of why Hernandez was convicted.
His and Odin Loyd's cellphone records established they were together at the time of the murder. Hernandez rented an SUV, left the GPS on, which tracked Hernandez to Loyd's house, to the vacant lot where Loyd's body was found, and then back to Hernandez's house, which was roughly 100 yards from where the murder took place. Loyd and Hernandez didn't live anywhere near each other. Loyd was in the Boston area, Hernandez close to the Rhode Island border.
Two people heard the gun shots and noted the time. The time frame placed Hernandez's rented SUV at the vacant lot during that time. The day of the murder Hernandez's in house closed circuit security cameras recorded him leaving the house with a gun. The day after the murder it recorded his girlfriend bundling up a huge trashbag and taking it out. The housekeeper testified during the length of her employment never once did the girlfriend even empty a full trash bucket, much less take out trash.
Add to that his girlfriend swearing under oath she and Hernandez never talked about the murder. Not even in the context of "holy crap someone was killed near our house." Or that the murder victim was dating the sister of Hernandez's girlfriend. Odd things to not discuss.
I believe he committed suicide for the following reasons. He was never getting out of prison. He was in prison because he killed a man to avoid going to prison for killing 2 different men. He was acquitted of killing those 2 men. Had he not killed Odin Loyd, Hernandez would probably never have gone to prison, but would still be in the NFL raking in millions. A compelling reason to end his own life.
Even assuming he was clinically narcissistic, that personalty trait has a complex relationship with suicide. It can be protective or aggravating. During a collapse of status it can be a risk factor. basically it is pretty much impossible to point to any trait and say is it blanket protective.
You believe he'd never have gotten out because the conviction seems solid and that his life otherwise would have been X not Y, thus this seems depressing enough to warrant suicide.
That's not necessarily his thinking process at all. There's no reason to think Hernandez didn't absolutely believe he'd get out -- I'd say his crying at the acquittal the other day is demonstration of that belief. If he believed he wasn't getting out, why? His lawyer has been adamant he could get Hernandez off, which seems unlikely on the facts, sure, but that doesn't mean it's impossible. It's not like no one has ever been let out on technical appeals.
The whole 'he'd have had X life' also presupposes he believed this was his life, to never change, which I see no evidence of.
As to the civil case, I missed that, but there's no reason a civil case can't go forward and win, as the bird notes. It's a lower standard of proof, and a criminal conviction isn't necessary.
Note, I think all jails and prisons should be safe, and when prisoners die while in custody someone has been negligent at best. Such deaths should be investigated, no matter how reprehensible the person in question is. But I'm not mourning his loss, let alone considering it tragic.
I don't think "but things were looking up for him so he wouldn't have committed suicide now" necessarily holds water. People commit suicide for reasons inside, not outside.
It could be that, after the rush of the acquittal, he started to think about how it didn't make any difference. He's still in jail, and as much as his lawyer talks about the appeal having a good chance, if he were guilty he'd have to know that the evidence against him was still there. After being in jail for four years, depression was a pretty likely companion. It may have hit him all at once what he'd had, and what he'd thrown away.
And sometimes people who are severely depressed will commit suicide when they appear to be recovering (though it's not clear that the recovery process is causative), as the level of their apparent depression lessens. I've no idea if that applies here, or if he was clinically depressed to begin with.