I've always wanted to be a writer. I've been writing for eight years, and I usually write the stories I want to read. Every time I let anyone read something I'm passionate about I get the same response: *insert blank expression here* No one likes my writing when I write what I want. My multiple critique groups didn't like it, pros I showed it to didn't like it, and I never go so much as a personalized rejection for any of my favorite pieces.
Then I said to myself, "hey, why not write what you don't like?"
So I, a man who throws a great number of the fantasy (my favorite genre) novels across the room because he can't stand them and finds them uninspired and cliched, decided to sit down and write a formulaic, uninspired, lousy fantasy short story. I hated it...and everyone loved it. I submitted it...and the second submission got it published.
My first writing credit was a story that I used another, cliched hack of a writer's stories as a template for.
I go back to writing what I want, and get the same blank looks. Then I write a lousy, cliched horror short story complete with a lightening storm. No, really, THE STORY LITERALLY TAKES PLACE DURING A DARK AND STORMY NIGHT. And guess what? MY SECOND STORY GETS PUBLISHED.
Then I write another formulaic piece of trashy horror...AND IT GOT PUBLISHED AND I GOT PAID A WHOLE $10!
Now I'm writing an urban fantasy novel about a hot bisexual man who's also a low-level witch who has to use his low-magick to defeat the powerful mages who run his city. Everyone loves it, including some published authors I showed excerpts to. I hate it. As I write and revise it, I am not looking at it with my heart but with my eye for marketing what the readers, want, and not what I find interesting.
The more I do this, the more I realize what being an author (for me at least) as opposed to a writer, is going to be. An author (in my case) is one who swallows his pride and turns out crap that he doesn't care for, but what the audience wants.
I've been told that if I get enough success editors may take a chance with the stuff I want to write, but that involves slogging on for years writing about spells and gunfights and writing crappy love scenes between two unrealistically hot people.
And even if I do succeed with this crap I hate, how am I ever going to market it? I mean, I could imagine doing a personal appearance with my novel: "yeah, hi, glad you liked my paint-by-number fluff novel that I wrote just to get my name out there." Fortunately I have worked in sales, so I have experience getting people to spend money on things I wouldn't spend money on all the time.
I'm finally getting somewhere with my writing, and I feel like an absolute failure. This must be kinda how a young actor feels when they go to Hollywood and end up having to make porn or, even worse, make a Uwe Boll movie. This is the one issue I never imagined I would have to face. Anyone else have to face this issue? I just want to make huge, deep, literary fantasy...instead, I'm going to have to slog through writing and marketing crappy commercial tripe in the hope that one day someone will take a chance on what I really want to make.
EDIT: for the record, I'm not knocking people who write literary fantasy and such...just talking about my own personal struggle with writing quality fiction and getting it published.
Then I said to myself, "hey, why not write what you don't like?"
So I, a man who throws a great number of the fantasy (my favorite genre) novels across the room because he can't stand them and finds them uninspired and cliched, decided to sit down and write a formulaic, uninspired, lousy fantasy short story. I hated it...and everyone loved it. I submitted it...and the second submission got it published.
My first writing credit was a story that I used another, cliched hack of a writer's stories as a template for.
I go back to writing what I want, and get the same blank looks. Then I write a lousy, cliched horror short story complete with a lightening storm. No, really, THE STORY LITERALLY TAKES PLACE DURING A DARK AND STORMY NIGHT. And guess what? MY SECOND STORY GETS PUBLISHED.
Then I write another formulaic piece of trashy horror...AND IT GOT PUBLISHED AND I GOT PAID A WHOLE $10!
Now I'm writing an urban fantasy novel about a hot bisexual man who's also a low-level witch who has to use his low-magick to defeat the powerful mages who run his city. Everyone loves it, including some published authors I showed excerpts to. I hate it. As I write and revise it, I am not looking at it with my heart but with my eye for marketing what the readers, want, and not what I find interesting.
The more I do this, the more I realize what being an author (for me at least) as opposed to a writer, is going to be. An author (in my case) is one who swallows his pride and turns out crap that he doesn't care for, but what the audience wants.
I've been told that if I get enough success editors may take a chance with the stuff I want to write, but that involves slogging on for years writing about spells and gunfights and writing crappy love scenes between two unrealistically hot people.
And even if I do succeed with this crap I hate, how am I ever going to market it? I mean, I could imagine doing a personal appearance with my novel: "yeah, hi, glad you liked my paint-by-number fluff novel that I wrote just to get my name out there." Fortunately I have worked in sales, so I have experience getting people to spend money on things I wouldn't spend money on all the time.
I'm finally getting somewhere with my writing, and I feel like an absolute failure. This must be kinda how a young actor feels when they go to Hollywood and end up having to make porn or, even worse, make a Uwe Boll movie. This is the one issue I never imagined I would have to face. Anyone else have to face this issue? I just want to make huge, deep, literary fantasy...instead, I'm going to have to slog through writing and marketing crappy commercial tripe in the hope that one day someone will take a chance on what I really want to make.
EDIT: for the record, I'm not knocking people who write literary fantasy and such...just talking about my own personal struggle with writing quality fiction and getting it published.
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