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This is my biggest problem right now, and I'm struggling to find a way to overcome it.
Right now, I'm extremely broke. I can't find anything other than a mediocre retail job to work and trying to pay off my student loans is kicking me in the butt. I can't seem to relax without thinking about how much of a bad spot I'm in financially.
But I want to write, so badly do I want to write. I sit down and stare at a blank page and the only thing that comes to mind is how I can't fix my car, or need to pay for gas so I can take my sisters to school, or how I have to pay the next iteration of my student loans due next month, or anything. It all just bogs down my mind and I can't focus on plot, character, or even writing at all. How does one fix this?
I've tried so many things to get my mind away from real life for a while so I can focus on writing, but I can't shake this feeling of need. I desire more than anything to earn a living with my writing, but that desire seems to get in the way sometimes. I want so much to write and earn my keep that way -- I don't want wealth, I don't want fame, I just want a job I love for the rest of my life. I know that job is writing.
But these thoughts paralyze me. I hate the place I am in life so much that I've constructed a mentality of "I need to write so I can get away from this" and it paralyzes me.
How do I break free from this?
Right now, I'm extremely broke. I can't find anything other than a mediocre retail job to work and trying to pay off my student loans is kicking me in the butt. I can't seem to relax without thinking about how much of a bad spot I'm in financially.
But I want to write, so badly do I want to write. I sit down and stare at a blank page and the only thing that comes to mind is how I can't fix my car, or need to pay for gas so I can take my sisters to school, or how I have to pay the next iteration of my student loans due next month, or anything. It all just bogs down my mind and I can't focus on plot, character, or even writing at all. How does one fix this?
I've tried so many things to get my mind away from real life for a while so I can focus on writing, but I can't shake this feeling of need. I desire more than anything to earn a living with my writing, but that desire seems to get in the way sometimes. I want so much to write and earn my keep that way -- I don't want wealth, I don't want fame, I just want a job I love for the rest of my life. I know that job is writing.
But these thoughts paralyze me. I hate the place I am in life so much that I've constructed a mentality of "I need to write so I can get away from this" and it paralyzes me.
How do I break free from this?