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I was sexually assaulted, and I'm pretty sure the guy that did it had no idea that what he was doing was wrong.
He was a friend. We'd discussed having sex before, but I wasn't ready yet. He invited me to a houseparty of his, encouraged me to drink heavily, and flirted with me. I didn't realize he was trying to have sex with me.
He kept telling me that I needed to go lie down in his room because I'd had too much to drink, but I insisted I wanted to stay outside with everyone else. Eventually, he and another guy picked me up and moved me to his bedroom.
As soon as we were alone, he tried to... er, initiate sex. I was too drunk to move and could barely speak. I didn't want to have sex and was totally incapable of explaining that. Eventually, when I didn't respond, he left and began vomiting up mixed drinks and shots in the bathroom.
I am almost totally certain he had no idea he sexually assaulted me. I'm sure in his mind, he tried to initiate drunk sex with a friend he thought was down to fuck. In reality, he sexually assaulted a girl who wasn't totally sure she wanted to have sex with him, while she was way too drunk to consent, when she already made it clear that she didn't want to lie down in his room.
Rape happens in a gray area. I seriously doubt most rapists even think of themselves as rapists. The problem with Chrissie Hynde's take on rape is that it pretends rape happens between a woman and a burly stranger, when the stranger is some burly criminal and the girl is kicking and screaming for help. It pretends the rape might prevented if only she were better at escaping. Which may be true in some cases, but in others... it seems more complicated than that.
EDIT: What I'm saying is, I don't mind rape prevention tips. But no rape prevention tip would've ever prevented my sexual assault.
He was a friend. We'd discussed having sex before, but I wasn't ready yet. He invited me to a houseparty of his, encouraged me to drink heavily, and flirted with me. I didn't realize he was trying to have sex with me.
He kept telling me that I needed to go lie down in his room because I'd had too much to drink, but I insisted I wanted to stay outside with everyone else. Eventually, he and another guy picked me up and moved me to his bedroom.
As soon as we were alone, he tried to... er, initiate sex. I was too drunk to move and could barely speak. I didn't want to have sex and was totally incapable of explaining that. Eventually, when I didn't respond, he left and began vomiting up mixed drinks and shots in the bathroom.
I am almost totally certain he had no idea he sexually assaulted me. I'm sure in his mind, he tried to initiate drunk sex with a friend he thought was down to fuck. In reality, he sexually assaulted a girl who wasn't totally sure she wanted to have sex with him, while she was way too drunk to consent, when she already made it clear that she didn't want to lie down in his room.
Rape happens in a gray area. I seriously doubt most rapists even think of themselves as rapists. The problem with Chrissie Hynde's take on rape is that it pretends rape happens between a woman and a burly stranger, when the stranger is some burly criminal and the girl is kicking and screaming for help. It pretends the rape might prevented if only she were better at escaping. Which may be true in some cases, but in others... it seems more complicated than that.
EDIT: What I'm saying is, I don't mind rape prevention tips. But no rape prevention tip would've ever prevented my sexual assault.
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