My title may be like Yoda line, but...my problem is really complex so if you are even remotely interested just read the whole thing , because I really need your advice. It may start like it has nothing to do with writing and screenwriting in particular, but eventually it will make sense.
So, here’s my story. I am a 19 years old teenager from Bulgaria. Bulgaria?! – you may think. I bet most of you have never heard of that place before…so let me tell you about it. Here in Bulgaria the average month salary is about 500$.Most of the people with dreams and ambitions migrate to Western Europe or USA , but some of us just don’t have the finances to go and study abroad. For instance, I wanted to continue my education in Britain, studying screenwriting , but since my parents can’t afford helping me out with the money, I’ll be studying economics in Bulgaria.( I still studied my ass of to get in) I am not complaining. Maybe that’s the right thing to do. Get a solid profession and not that solid salary, working from 9 to 5 and that’s it. Accept the world for what it is – a place that is just not fair. For my parents writing is like being a musician for some people. We have an old saying in Bulgaria : “A musician can’t feed the house” (can’t provide for his family). Being an artist is a silly thing to be here. As you can see I am a little short of supporters. Here’s the thing, though. I love movies. I love the illusion they create. It’s like for those two hours I am in a different world, a better world, where everything is possible and life is just less…hard. So, I guess, my question is: Is there a point in trying to achieve something from here (Bulgaria), moreover is it even possible to be noticed or succeed. Because that’s what we all want- to be noticed , to feel like our thoughts, our stories will be remembered. Before some of you optimists answer me with the biggest clichés of all something like: “Follow your dreams” or “ You can do it , buddy” there’s something I have to say. I don’t have money! – plain and simple. I don’t have money for books, I don’t have money for writing courses (it may come as a surprise, but there are not any good courses in the area) and I have no idea how to start or where to start from for that matter. All I have is a fairly readable blog in Bulgarian which people seem to dig and a couple of really small achievements in literature. Expressing myself on a piece of paper is basically the most meaningful thing I’ve ever felt doing. It’s just…all I have for the time being is time. So, I am not asking you if it possible to achieve something I am asking you: “IS IT REALISTIC?”. I can use that couple of months for finding a job, studying a new foreign language (which will be really useful in finding a better job), working out or doing all those things simultaneously, instead of chasing windmills and dreams that will never come true. All I know is that I have a really good story to tell, but the odds are surely against me. It’s hard enough for a native English speaking writer to succeed , so what’s left for the “guy from Bulgaria”. So, guys, I really need your opinion on this, whatever it is , no matter how hard you may be on me I’d really like to see what you think.