Ally, maybe you can do what I'm doing right now. Right now I'm simply writing as a coping skill for life. The same with art. I'm a huge perfectionist to the extreme. I will rewrite the same exact sentence 10 times before I decide it's good enough before I even move onto sentence number two. I never get past around 150 words because I generally feel like there's no point in trying if I can't get it perfect.
I'm so jealous of the fact you are able to write even though you know you're grammar is not perfect due to circumstances that are out of your control. Me? I spend an hour agonizing over where to put a comma, or to remove a comma.
; So while my grammar is generally okay, I get absolutely nothing done since I discourage myself and delete everything.
So just think, at least you get stuff done.
I know I can't handle criticism either due to my BPD. They say, "Oh you missed a period between these two sentences." And I hear, "OH MY GOD YOU SUCK AT WRITING YOU FAIL AT LIFE MIGHT AS WELL GO KILL YOURSELF RIGHT NOW."
Oh you silly borderline thinking!
It's times like these where you have to look back on what you've done and tell yourself, "Wow! I've accomplished a lot despite my circumstances!" I know when I finished a short story back in October, it was such a rush because I actually finished something. Of course now I'm ashamed of it, but hey, it's still a miracle I finished something!