Starting something new, and
OH
MY
GAHHHHHHHHHH
such garbage.
I *know* I'll get to the point where I know my characters well and the words will flow freely like a drunken piss in a darkened alley, but for now, I feel like everything is forced and my writing is garbage. I hate hate HATE beginnings. *hulksmashes everything*
When I was very young my father had me start training in Savate - which is a French fighting method (a martial art). By pure luck, my instructor was also an artist - a painter of landscapes, portraits, and things like that (not houses). He was actually fairly well known back then (50's into the 60's).
One day while I was practicing Savate - and was getting frustrated with my technique, he told me this (I'm paraphrasing of course):
Art involves two primary aspects, the hand and the eye. The more you paint, the more these aspects develop in you - BUT they don't grow at the same rate. When you first start painting your eye is ahead of your hand, and everything you do looks like crap... but then your hand improves and finally you are pleased with your work and happy. Then after a while your art starts looking like crap again, you think your abilities are falling short and you're tempted to give up trying. What's happened though is that your hand has NOT suddenly become clumsy and awful, instead what's happened is that your eye has improved. This is why most people who start painting give it up after a short time - they become discouraged and everything seems impossible. Don't believe that - just know that your abilities are not decreasing, but your perception of them is improving. Keep working, and know that this won't be the only time you feel this way about your art.