Work's been kicking my butt and writing is my escape and way to relax and release all stress. However with this kerfluffle going on with the antagonist of the novel I'm having to rethink everything. Which is frustrating but I know it's all part of the writing process. I mean I'll probably end up rewriting the whole damn thing in editing right?
So I've been doing more world and history building to flesh out details and working on scenes that I
know will end up in the novel regardless of how the antagonist goes about his business. As long as I'm doing something I think. I've also been, trying to find a second story to work on when I need a break from this one and picking one is
hard.
Before I used to never finish anything, never stick with anything other than a short story for a long period of time. I let myself get distracted too which is a big thing that I didn't want to realize but had to admit to myself. I will say though, on a personal note I've been getting some therapy with some past issues I've had (I'm okay and all) and it's
really helped me on a personal level achieve some serious growth and some old destructive habits I had, died finally.
It was then I realized this novel is different, I think I saw a post on here (not sure where) where someone was talking about how I'll never
actually achieve my dream of being a published author if I don't just suck it up and write, write,
write even though I
don't want to write I want to watch Netflix now/Sleep/Read my new book/Color/Watch youtube. It really stuck with me, and for months I just
thought about that until something in me finally broke and I found it. That
discipline, that
drive to write that I was ignoring for stupid reasons and I started working hard.
Regardless it's really helped me and for the first time I felt positive about this, I think my dream is possible. I wish I remember who wrote the post I was thinking about, I want to thank them.