I could use some good thoughts, warm wishes, and prayers, however you believe in them.
Friday, July 31, I went in for an outpatient procedure that unexpectedly revealed a large cancerous mass. I went into surgery on Tuesday, Aug 4. It went well, with 99% of the tumor removed. Some lymph nodes were taken out also, to see if cancer has spread into them. I guess that determines the type of treatment, radiation and chemo.
I'm still in hospital but will be released this weekend, to recover at home. The healing is going well.
I'm worried about our financial situation. I work full time and husband is self employed. We get health insurance through my job. The doctor doesn't think I'll be able to work consistently during treatment, which she thinks will be about 2 years. Everyone is telling me to focus on healing and not worry about the future, but I don't want to lose our house.
I brought a small book by Pema Chodron with me, but I'm not able to really concentrate right now so haven't been reading. I'll go through my stack of spiritual books when I get home, for comfort and courage. This came out of the blue - no indications before and no one else in my family has had cancer.
Thank you for any good wishes you can spare.