As I said, the point of my question is to determine whether or not I've accomplished something to be proud of. The publisher I had was DNA Press (I did not pay a dime). I had no agent. I am a science fiction writer.
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To be perfectly honest, the reason I started to question my writing career was because I recently learned that a friend of mine (who is the same age as me) is now a famous artist (she makes millions and is on the covers of many magazines). For the past few years I thought being a published novelist was something that few others could be, but after seeing what she accomplished, I suddenly realized how little I have done with my life. I give myself credit for trying my best; I truly did try my best. But trying just doesn't seem good enough anymore.
I'm not looking for pity. I'm looking for honest answers as to whether or not I should have pride in my achievement. I don't care what the answer is, I just want some closure.
Tough love time. Here is my answer to your question
You should not be proud of your accomplishment. Truth be told, I feel shame for you.
Reading your post, is like watching a parent berate their 14 yr old child after they've won a gynmastic's match.
The child puts in a great performance, the crowd cheers, and she wins the event. With pride she walks up to you with her medal drapped around her neck and carrying a 1st place trophy. You snatch the trophy from her hands and smash it against the wall. "Mr. Robert's daughter is in the olympics, she just won a gold medal for diving. What is your accomplishment as compared to hers? Just a stupid high school trophy, how pathetic," you scream.
That is pretty much how you are now coming across to me. Your post doesn't mention what your book is about, if you are proud of the story, the idea, the soul and spirit of the work. All I get from you is a point-by-point comparison to 'others'. That is your standard for judging your accomplishment? How it compares to others?
It is true, we do compare our stories to others, but not in the same sense as you are doing. From your tone and semantics of your posts, I get no feelings of love from your work. You are as cold as a Soviet coach whipping a 7 yr old future gymnast into shape.
I think I see why you are incapable of seeing how your posts come across as rude and offensive (as has been stated by several other posters).
As artists, we love our works, they are 'our' babies. And then, a so called fellow artist comes in, and essentially berates his child in front of us. You take the trophy that is your child's accomplishment and smash it against the wall in front of all us other parents while screaming at your child that she is no good because some other child is better???
That is what you are doing. Having given this matter serious thought, you are coming across as someone who is 13 years old and not 26. You are coming across as a 'suit' and not an 'artist'.
I have no idea what you are looking to gain from your posts. If you really wanted objectivity, you would post a chapter, or hell, show us a link to the book so we could buy it. But you aren't doing that? You are coming into these forums with cryptic questions and scenarios and insulting each and everyone of us who have been shedding blood, sweat, and tears for years just to get a single story into some unknown 'free' magazine.
There are people on this site that have been writing for longer than you or I have been alive and they would consider that labor of love to be worth it if they could get just one publication. And then you come in with this 'woe is me' attitude about your life being over because your publication is not on parr with your millionaire artist friend.
I'm glad you came on to this site, it is great to have an example of what not to be. When someone asks me if they have what it takes to be an artist, I will show them your posts. If they agree with you, I will tell them no, they don't have what it takes.
Writing is a labor of love. Writing is a labor of love.
Writing. Is. A. Labor. Of. Love.
We've tried to be encouraging and supportive, but I don't think you want that. We've also been honest but apparently you don't want that either. So it's tough love time. Stop being ridiculous. Yes, ridiculous.
Should you write?
If you ask me that question, my answer is simple. I do not want to write. I HAVE TO WRITE. I have a million stories in my head, dying to get out. Everything I see, hear, touch, taste, gives me an idea for a character, a story, a plot. Truth be told, I sometimes hate this curse. This compulsion, to get up out of my bed at 3:00am becuase I had a cool dream and if I don't write it down it will be lost forever. Or to spend tens of hours on a story that just doesn't pan out, but I have to finish it because it is begging me for life, to be finished, complete.
I, along with 95% of my bretheren on this site do not write because we want to. We write because we have to. For good or bad, for fame or poverty, we write because we are artists, and we are slaves to our art.
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